PART EIGHT Europe Tour Fall 2011.
To
Bob Dylan’s old-man-sitter Barron Tabura. (Known
as the NINJA warrior or 'the last of the Samurai')
1
I
Dublin and
the U.K.
Hello I'm
back on the road,
So I started
my adventure again for this European Tour Fall (October/November)
2011.
First show in Dublin, and I'm a little bit
disappointed.
First Bob didn't play with Marc Knopfler, not a
song, not even a guitar solo.
The show started at 7.30 p.m. with
Knopfler and a bunch of musicians. Though the set was excellent
technically I found myself a little bit bored. I didn't know the
songs except maybe one that I recognized from Dire Straits.
So,
one hour of Knopfler and then they changed the equipment: rolling
stage. This took slightly more than 15 minutes.
My seat is not the
best but the 'scalpers' didn't give me any chance to have a spare
ticket. I had to buy one at the box office for 70€, a bit
expensive.
The sound is not so good; I don't even hear what Marc
is talking about. The instruments are a bit too loud. The O2 is full,
some usher told me the capacity is 10 000. The public is mixed: old
(about my age) and young (in their 20's).
I could not see any
buses or trucks; the parking lot is inside, completely closed. I
don't know if they had had a sound check.
"Ladies
and Gentlemen..."
Here HE is: same outfit, same musicians.
Charley being the lead guitar and not Knopfler as I had
thought.
"Leopard skin pill box hat", really fast and
inaudible, the music is loud and covers his voice.
He seems fit
but I don't see his face from where I am.
"Don't think
twice", "Tangled up in blue", "Things have
changed", "Desolation row".
He missed the keyboard
solo and wandered on stage, looking at his musicians playing. He
doesn't want to play or there is a problem with the keyboard?
Strange! He looks detached from the GAME.
"Beyond here lies
nothing", "Forgetful heart", "Highway 61"
...
The show is rushed out, no spirit. He doesn't feel comfortable
and play few on the battered keyboard, leaving the lead to Charley.
Only a good harmonica solo on "Forgetful heart": blowing
until his eyes bleed.
The public is good but not over doing it. No
request. No dancing in the front. Polite. They, too, came to see the
Living Legend.
I move to the back stage gates but they are already
loading the big trucks.
I return to my Youth Hostel a bit down
spirited. I checked in there on the 5th of October. I had been able
to find a cheap flight on RyanAir and two nights in a dormitory of 18
people (not a quiet sleep).
I took a chance to sight seeing
Dublin: very nice city and warm inhabitants though the weather is
terrible; cold and rainy. Plenty of things to do and for cheap, often
free for the museums' entrance. I'm now queuing for the boat to
Holyhead U.K. No show tonight. I'm expecting some BobCats
following the 6 shows in the U.K.
The sea
crossing went all right. Arriving in Holyhead on time. I catch a
train to Glasgow, change in Chester and change in Crewe.
Arriving in
Glasgow on time 5:14 p.m.
Then I’m
surprised how crowded the station is. Glasgow is in fact a big city.
I take some steps outside and I find myself completely lost and
confused. The tourist information center is closed.
I ask people
for a cheap hotel but they direct me to the Holiday Inn or so. I know
it’s expensive and I need three nights for Bob will be playing two
nights on the 8th and 9th and tonight
there is no show but I need to rest some place safe. There is no way
to sleep outside in Scotland; everything is wet.
After few hours
of wandering I finally find the Euro Hostel and book a bed for 18€
+ breakfast. It’s clean and central. Unfortunately they have no
room for the next night so after a good night sleep and an excellent
shower I pack up for another Backpackers located by the University,
less central but more quiet. There is bus n°747 going to the
Braehead Arena where the shows will take place.
I’m
wondering where Bob is and if He’s fasting for it's Yom Kippur
ending tonight at sun down. Maybe He went to a synagogue, but which
one?
I will go early to the Arena to
check around and try to get some information. According to the forum
“Expecting rain” some BobCats will follow but not all the six
shows and some will go to Germany. A certain Ryan will be around. I
feel isolated and hope for some fans out tonight after the show.
II
10/08
GLASGOW
I take the bus 747 to
Braehead Arena expecting to have to wait outside for more than three
hours. So I put on my only sweatshirt. The bus is on time.
To my
big surprise the Arena is inside a shopping mall. I go immediately to
the Box Office to find out the show tonight is Sold Out but not
tomorrow. So I buy a ticket for the 9th for
the two shows are General Admission: a chance to be in the front for
60€.
I go down the first level of the mall to find some fans
already queuing at the General Entrance. I start to queue and at the
same time look for a ticket. A nice Lady sales me one for 60€. A
lot of money but I want to be in the front.
I talk with a nice
Lady next to me.
A girl is going around with a banner “Please, I
need a free ticket”. I have the feeling she’s the Italian woman
following the Tour like me. But I have no time to talk to her. At
6.30 p.m. they open the doors and we rush inside. I’m not exactly
in the front but just behind a couple of people. I position myself to
have a good view on the keyboard.
It’s stuffing inside, I take
off my raincoat and my sweatshirt. I talk with some people: a Lady
from Italy, a man from Island….
7:35 p.m.
Mark Knopfler and his musicians are on. So close he looks old and
fat!
But the music is pretty good. Obviously he knows the
public is for Dylan.
Even if people are polite they get impatient
and we can hear here and there “Bob!” “Bobby!”,
“Dylan!”.
They change the instruments and... here He is. Same
suit as in Dublin but black hat.
”Leopard skin pill box hat”.
So
close He also looks fat; a ring of fat all around his waist. He might
finally wear that long large jacket to cover that extra fat.
The
lights are blinding him, his eyes are closed, he can’t see!
But
tonight He doesn’t leave his keyboard and the mikes are functioning
well.
The public is well responding so He’ll get excited ‘til
the end: spiting in his mike and sweating like crazy on “Highway
61”.
The couple in front of me decide to leave the show, I
move right in the front, singing with Bobby again like in
Woodstock.
The set list is different from the one in Dublin but I
know all the songs from the American Tour.
He will not do “Beyond
here lies nothing” nor “Forgetful heart” but a splendid “A
hard rain’s a gonna fall” with the public singing
along.
He’s resplendent and happy as much as He can
be. Tony Garnier is smiling at him; he must be erratic on his
keyboard. His voice is OK, clear and loud. He’s spiting and blowing
in his harp until his eyes bleed!
After a bus
ride back and a good night sleep we are Sunday the 9th. I
just spend few hours inside the Fine Art Museum not far from the
Backpackers. Now hoping for another excellent show. But we never
know…
III
10/09
GLASGOW
Be at the Braehead
commercial center by 5.00 p.m. There are already 20 fans queuing.
My
nice English friend from yesterday (not going to the show tonight) is
waiting for me and kept some space in the front for me. I bought a
book and start to read, as fans don’t communicate too much.
At
6.30 p.m. the gates open. I find myself in the same spot as
yesterday: on the right side, where He’s playing the keyboard.
Mark
and his Band are as good as usual but obviously the public is waiting
for Dylan.
I’m still wondering why they have two groups on the
same ticket. They should cut down the price and put only Dylan. But
Business is business! profitability !
“Ladies and
gentlemen, ..."
“Leopard
skin pill box hat” … and many songs from yesterday.
He’s
good with the same detached appearance toward the public: like He’s
playing for himself or … GOD!
The fans
in the front are the same as yesterday: a mixed of old-ones and
young-ones: two generations. Bob must know for his set list is a
mixed of old songs from the 60’s and new songs from the 90’s,
nothing from 70’s or 80’s. Except "Simple twist of fate and
"Tangled up in blue"
I can see him really close:
sweating and spiting in his mike. He’s less on the keyboard now and
move more on the center stage, moving good on his sticky legs having
their own will, like a dis-articulated puppet. The Besht would be
proud of that erratic Jew! Head in Heaven and legs on Earth.
I
leave the concert after the encore for I’m in the front. No way to
leave on time to say bye to the bus. I take a city bus plus a walk to
my dorm. I will sleep well and leave in the morning to the train
station where I’m supposed to meet an English BobCat. We met but he
has a reserved seat and not me so we split and don’t see each other
again.
The train is a slow train; three hours and a half to
reach Manchester, again a big city, no way to step on Bob by a simple
twist of fate.
I find rapidly the Youth Hostel and check in. On
the streets I met the Italian girl following the Tour since 1998. She
had been unfriendly in Glasgow and when I tried to talk to her in
Manchester she clearly stated that she prefers to travel alone and
not to share!?
She says she has “too many people around me»,
whatever that means!
IV
10/10
MANCHESTER
In the afternoon I take
a walk to the M.E.N., 15 minutes walk from the Hostel. The trucks are
parked in an inside parking lot. I do a sight seeing tour of the
downtown area, beautiful cathedrals and buildings.
Shortly before
5 p.m. I’m at the backstage gate. Two black buses are already
parked inside but I figure that they are the Knopfler band buses.
The
Italian woman is waiting so I ask her naively. She answers “you’ll
find out by yourself”. I’m mad and call her a 'bitch'. She says
she doesn’t answer questions. I hate her immediately. I believe
she’s one of those crazy "nuts" after Dylan (for a night
in bed!). We split. After little time she comes to me and says
something like “ If the people of the Tour say something about me,
don’t believe them”. I’m mad at her and answer that I know how
it works for I’ve been following since 78. She starts to ague but I
ask her to shut up. The war is declared!
After half an hour of
waiting in the rain she leaves. I’m thinking that if the black bus
is not the Dylan one it will be arriving between 6 and 7 p.m. (Dylan
not always did the sound check in the Sates). So I wait in the rain,
soaked wet, until a quarter to seven. Nothing happened.
I move to
the entrance of the Arena and ask for a spare ticket. A scalper sales
me one for 40€. Ok, I’m inside on the floor, far from the stage,
but I will have the possibility of leaving before the end and find
out about the Bus.
The show is good and fans
are up to dance a little bit. No surprise. The sound is excellent.
I
move out after “Ballad of a thin man”.
The two black buses are
ready to go. The musicians pill up in the fist one. I see Mr X.
running like crazy but no Barron. Two young guys are expecting an
autograph. The first bus pulls out and it’s Bob’s bus (I
believe).
Now I know He comes around 5.00 p.m. and stay in his bus
until shortly after 9.00 p.m.
I say as usual “Bye Bye Bobby,
good night!” and move rapidly to my bed. I had my “shot of love”.
V
10/11
NOTTINGHAM
I took an
excellent breakfast. I’ll be living soon to Nottingham.
Arriving in
Nottingham on time. Found a Hostel right next to the F.M. Arena. Took
a walk in the city then passing by the Arena at 4.15 p.m. I see two
black buses pulling in the parking lot. Could it be the sound check
so early? And yes, I can hear some music. I still don’t know if Bob
is doing the check or if He’s in his bus. But I wait, I wait until
5.30 p.m. Mr X. and Barron are coming out the Arena and yes Bobby is
walking to his bus all covered up with hoods for it’s raining
again. He looks so tiny next to his bodyguards. His legs are skinny,
wrapped in black tight pants. I wish he could wear these ones on
stage!
On the other
side of the gate I can see the Italian woman waiting and screaming
something like “I love you Bobby!”. I move to the other side to
check around in the parking lot. Now five black buses looking alike
are parked one next to the other, for in the afternoon, around 5.00
p.m. Mark and his musicians arrived. But Mark has no personal bus. So
I guess two buses for the roadies, one bus for Mark and his Band, one
for Bob’s Band and one for Bob himself. I still have to memorize
the plate number. I believe I can recognize the drivers.
I talk to a
nice man I’m supposed to meet tomorrow at noon for a tour of the
city. He helps me to get a spare ticket for 40€, still a lot but
I’m in. I start to plan my “escape” after “Like a rolling
stone” to see the buses pulling out. But with Dylan you never know.
“Ladies and
gentlemen …”.
“Leopard
skin pill box hat”. Then surprisingly a series of songs I never
heard on stage and that I have some difficulty to recognize.
He’s lot in
the front mike not so much on the keyboard, moving from one side of
the stage to the other, grabbing his mike in his hand and at time
playing his guitar.
The public is
not responding, I see many people leaving the hall; no one is
standing up or dancing on the good Rock and Roll like “Highway 61”.
The show is
Rock and Roll and blues tonight. Many new songs. Maybe, maybe a bit
too long. I don’t feel the MAGIC I’m used too with “Forgetful
heart” and “Blind Willie Mc Tell”. My seat is far from the
stage. I don’t see him sweating.
“Ballad of
a thin man” and I’m sure of the break. But surprise! He’s doing
right away “All along the watch tower”. Whoa! No break. So I move
out quickly while I hear “Like a rolling stone”. The buses
engines are running. The gates are open and the crazy Italian woman
is around already. I see the musicians coming out and a security
woman rushes suddenly towards the Italian woman and
asks to talk to her. But she
doesn’t want to talk. Fed. is arguing and arguing… and the buses
pull out.
“Bye, bye
Bobby, good night!»
I walk to my
dorm to find in there an Israeli guy. We chat for a while about Eretz
Israel and the relief of Gilat Shalit and then Bryan comes in. He had
been to the Dylan show and in fact follows since Glasgow. We chat
about Dylan. He knows a lot and can tell me what are the names of the
songs I missed; “Watching the river flow”, “Just
Like Tom Thumb's Blues”, “Love sick”.
We agree that
Fed. is out of her mind. I have to remember to stay away from her and
we agree that this show was surprising.
I’m looking
forward for the Cardiff show. It will be General Admission. I want to
be in the front. I decided to move to Cardiff today in the afternoon
to find about the venue tomorrow morning and be on the line really,
really early. I’m sure to find all the other BobCats and share
about the already legendary Nottingham show.
VI
10/13
CARDIFF
I had found a
bunkhouse in the center town, five-minute walk from the Motorpoint
Arena. I checked in on the 12th. The five buses are
already all parked in the Arena parking lot.
After a
boring day off in Cardiff, just walking around I’m impatient to
know how I can get myself in the front row.
I go to the
Box Office early morning and buy myself a General Admission ticket,
just to be sure.
I meet two
BobCats following since Glasgow. They tell me about a ticket plus:
one buys a show-plus for 10€, it provides a meal but most of all
the possibility to be in the arena before the throng. I buy that
extra ticket that will make the ticket price at 70€. A lot, but a
chance to be in the front.
I go by the
back stage door at 4.00 p.m. Around 4.30 p.m. the two black buses are
pulling in; sound check time. Then shortly later the Mark Knopfler
bus is pulling in. Fed. is already around with her sign “Please, I
need a free ticket”, which she shows to the …bus!?
I chat with
the security guard and a young fellow who wants an autograph on an
original poster from Island of white 1969. He won’t get it.
In fact I
don’t even see Bob getting of his bus. The front curtain is not
pull down. He might be with the musicians.
I wait until
a quarter to six, my meal is supposed to be at 5.30 p.m. I seat with
another guy for the meal but it takes forever to get the chicken, so
we forget about it. I move out strait to the lounge waiting with
anxiety for the doors to open, hopefully before the throng.
And yes we
all rush in front and I hold tight on the rail, right in front the
keyboard.
Mark is as
good as ever, predictable.
“Ladies and
gentlemen …”
Here He is
again with his white hat.
“Leopard
skin” and surprise! "The man in a long black coat”. Sung in
a staccato deep voice. A wonder!
“Watching
the river flow” again and then more 'classic ones'; “Things have
changed”, “A hard rain’s a-gonna fall”, “Thunder on the
mountain”.
He’s again
enjoying himself, grinning a lot. Though I can’t say that He’s
actually smiling.
I look
carefully at his face. I’m not sure if He’s looking at the public
or deliberately avoiding looking. He’s more on the center sage than
in the States where He was stuck at his keyboard.
His jacket is
tight on him. Again my question is if yes or no he’s wearing
something underneath or if He’s just fat!?
VII
10/14
BOURNEMOUTH
Bournemouth
is a nice little city by the sea. Unfortunately I have no time to
enjoy. Tonight again it’s a standing Entrance. If I get early
enough on the line I might be in the front.
First I have
to look for a room. There is a Backpackers Hostel. After more than an
hour walk I find myself in front of a “closed” sign. They will
open at 5.30 p.m. Too late for me. I walk back to down town. I
check the backstage of the Arena. A black bus is parked but the front
shutter is not down. It might not be the Dylan’s bus.
I find a room
for 41€, really expensive but private. So I will have time to rest
well. I’ve got a cold and fever. I start coughing. I’m not
comfortable but in good spirit.
By 4.30 p.m.
I go by the backstage door and also by the front door where I meet
the U.K. BobCats. The same ones for six shows now are queuing in the
front. I say hello and stick to them to make sure to be in the front
for I don’t have a ticket yet. It’s Sold Out. The scalpers
promised me a ticket for 60€, a lot money. I will explode my budget
today but I’ll have a chance to be in the front, which is the best.
I move from
the front door to the back door and miss Bob just walking down the
ramp with his guards. Somebody around said that he saw a small man
with a hood on his head surrounded by two big guys. That was He! But
again no way to approach him.
I start
queuing at 5.00 p.m. not to loose my spot on the line. I talk to
BobCats around: one from Switzerland, the guy from Norway and the
others from U.K.
Some have
seen Bob all over Europe at some time or another since the 90’s.
Even some went to the States: N.Y (The Village), Hibbing, Duluth,
Point Dume; the classic Pilgrimage.
I’m not the
only crazy-one but none of them will hang around the bus (anymore)
but I supposed they tried in the early 90s? Receiving harsh answers
from the security they renounce to approach Dylan?
I still can’t
reconcile with His attitude. A young Fan wants an autograph on the
album “Blood on the tracks”. Did he get it? I truly doubt.
After one
more hour wait by the rail right in front of the Dylan keyboard (or
where it will be) Mark is on.
As good and
boring sometimes as usual.
Then we all
expect Bob for half an hour. He’s late and I’m tired. My back is
killing me.
“Ladies and
gentlemen…”
“Leopard
skin”
A surprise
“Wheel's on fire” staccato voice.
The lights
are off and I spot Mark moving on stage. Then the first notes of
“Beyond here lies nothing”, my favorite live song at the moment.
With Mark and Charley and Stu and Bob on guitars. Fantastic!
The MAGIC
works once again. Then more “classic” ones.
Already, so
soon, “The ballad of a thin man” followed immediately by “All
along the watch tower” and “Like a rolling stone” sang along by
the public.
I return
exhausted to my Hostel for a good night sleep and a good morning
breakfast.
Tonight was
the last U.K. show.
Another
adventure will start tomorrow. I’m looking forward to meeting
Claude Angele and share with her.
I found the
BobCats a bit too “polite”. We never met after the show to share
or never talk about each other objective. But still it was a more
pleasant Tour than in the U.S.A.
First show in Dublin, and I'm a little bit disappointed.
First Bob didn't play with Marc Knopfler, not a song, not even a guitar solo.
The show started at 7.30 p.m. with Knopfler and a bunch of musicians. Though the set was excellent technically I found myself a little bit bored. I didn't know the songs except maybe one that I recognized from Dire Straits.
So, one hour of Knopfler and then they changed the equipment: rolling stage. This took slightly more than 15 minutes.
My seat is not the best but the 'scalpers' didn't give me any chance to have a spare ticket. I had to buy one at the box office for 70€, a bit expensive.
The sound is not so good; I don't even hear what Marc is talking about. The instruments are a bit too loud. The O2 is full, some usher told me the capacity is 10 000. The public is mixed: old (about my age) and young (in their 20's).
I could not see any buses or trucks; the parking lot is inside, completely closed. I don't know if they had had a sound check.
Here HE is: same outfit, same musicians. Charley being the lead guitar and not Knopfler as I had thought.
"Leopard skin pill box hat", really fast and inaudible, the music is loud and covers his voice.
He seems fit but I don't see his face from where I am.
"Don't think twice", "Tangled up in blue", "Things have changed", "Desolation row".
He missed the keyboard solo and wandered on stage, looking at his musicians playing. He doesn't want to play or there is a problem with the keyboard? Strange! He looks detached from the GAME.
"Beyond here lies nothing", "Forgetful heart", "Highway 61" ...
The show is rushed out, no spirit. He doesn't feel comfortable and play few on the battered keyboard, leaving the lead to Charley. Only a good harmonica solo on "Forgetful heart": blowing until his eyes bleed.
The public is good but not over doing it. No request. No dancing in the front. Polite. They, too, came to see the Living Legend.
I move to the back stage gates but they are already loading the big trucks.
I return to my Youth Hostel a bit down spirited. I checked in there on the 5th of October. I had been able to find a cheap flight on RyanAir and two nights in a dormitory of 18 people (not a quiet sleep).
I took a chance to sight seeing Dublin: very nice city and warm inhabitants though the weather is terrible; cold and rainy. Plenty of things to do and for cheap, often free for the museums' entrance. I'm now queuing for the boat to Holyhead U.K. No show tonight. I'm expecting some BobCats following the 6 shows in the U.K.
After few hours of wandering I finally find the Euro Hostel and book a bed for 18€ + breakfast. It’s clean and central. Unfortunately they have no room for the next night so after a good night sleep and an excellent shower I pack up for another Backpackers located by the University, less central but more quiet. There is bus n°747 going to the Braehead Arena where the shows will take place.
I will go early to the Arena to check around and try to get some information. According to the forum “Expecting rain” some BobCats will follow but not all the six shows and some will go to Germany. A certain Ryan will be around. I feel isolated and hope for some fans out tonight after the show.
I take the bus 747 to Braehead Arena expecting to have to wait outside for more than three hours. So I put on my only sweatshirt. The bus is on time.
To my big surprise the Arena is inside a shopping mall. I go immediately to the Box Office to find out the show tonight is Sold Out but not tomorrow. So I buy a ticket for the 9th for the two shows are General Admission: a chance to be in the front for 60€.
I go down the first level of the mall to find some fans already queuing at the General Entrance. I start to queue and at the same time look for a ticket. A nice Lady sales me one for 60€. A lot of money but I want to be in the front.
I talk with a nice Lady next to me.
A girl is going around with a banner “Please, I need a free ticket”. I have the feeling she’s the Italian woman following the Tour like me. But I have no time to talk to her. At 6.30 p.m. they open the doors and we rush inside. I’m not exactly in the front but just behind a couple of people. I position myself to have a good view on the keyboard.
It’s stuffing inside, I take off my raincoat and my sweatshirt. I talk with some people: a Lady from Italy, a man from Island….
But the music is pretty good. Obviously he knows the public is for Dylan.
Even if people are polite they get impatient and we can hear here and there “Bob!” “Bobby!”, “Dylan!”.
They change the instruments and... here He is. Same suit as in Dublin but black hat.
”Leopard skin pill box hat”.
So close He also looks fat; a ring of fat all around his waist. He might finally wear that long large jacket to cover that extra fat.
The lights are blinding him, his eyes are closed, he can’t see!
But tonight He doesn’t leave his keyboard and the mikes are functioning well.
The public is well responding so He’ll get excited ‘til the end: spiting in his mike and sweating like crazy on “Highway 61”.
The couple in front of me decide to leave the show, I move right in the front, singing with Bobby again like in Woodstock.
The set list is different from the one in Dublin but I know all the songs from the American Tour.
He will not do “Beyond here lies nothing” nor “Forgetful heart” but a splendid “A hard rain’s a gonna fall” with the public singing along.
He’s resplendent and happy as much as He can be. Tony Garnier is smiling at him; he must be erratic on his keyboard. His voice is OK, clear and loud. He’s spiting and blowing in his harp until his eyes bleed!
Be at the Braehead commercial center by 5.00 p.m. There are already 20 fans queuing.
My nice English friend from yesterday (not going to the show tonight) is waiting for me and kept some space in the front for me. I bought a book and start to read, as fans don’t communicate too much.
At 6.30 p.m. the gates open. I find myself in the same spot as yesterday: on the right side, where He’s playing the keyboard.
Mark and his Band are as good as usual but obviously the public is waiting for Dylan.
I’m still wondering why they have two groups on the same ticket. They should cut down the price and put only Dylan. But Business is business! profitability !
He’s good with the same detached appearance toward the public: like He’s playing for himself or … GOD!
The fans in the front are the same as yesterday: a mixed of old-ones and young-ones: two generations. Bob must know for his set list is a mixed of old songs from the 60’s and new songs from the 90’s, nothing from 70’s or 80’s. Except "Simple twist of fate and "Tangled up in blue"
I can see him really close: sweating and spiting in his mike. He’s less on the keyboard now and move more on the center stage, moving good on his sticky legs having their own will, like a dis-articulated puppet. The Besht would be proud of that erratic Jew! Head in Heaven and legs on Earth.
I leave the concert after the encore for I’m in the front. No way to leave on time to say bye to the bus. I take a city bus plus a walk to my dorm. I will sleep well and leave in the morning to the train station where I’m supposed to meet an English BobCat. We met but he has a reserved seat and not me so we split and don’t see each other again.
The train is a slow train; three hours and a half to reach Manchester, again a big city, no way to step on Bob by a simple twist of fate.
I find rapidly the Youth Hostel and check in. On the streets I met the Italian girl following the Tour since 1998. She had been unfriendly in Glasgow and when I tried to talk to her in Manchester she clearly stated that she prefers to travel alone and not to share!?
She says she has “too many people around me», whatever that means!
In the afternoon I take a walk to the M.E.N., 15 minutes walk from the Hostel. The trucks are parked in an inside parking lot. I do a sight seeing tour of the downtown area, beautiful cathedrals and buildings.
Shortly before 5 p.m. I’m at the backstage gate. Two black buses are already parked inside but I figure that they are the Knopfler band buses.
The Italian woman is waiting so I ask her naively. She answers “you’ll find out by yourself”. I’m mad and call her a 'bitch'. She says she doesn’t answer questions. I hate her immediately. I believe she’s one of those crazy "nuts" after Dylan (for a night in bed!). We split. After little time she comes to me and says something like “ If the people of the Tour say something about me, don’t believe them”. I’m mad at her and answer that I know how it works for I’ve been following since 78. She starts to ague but I ask her to shut up. The war is declared!
After half an hour of waiting in the rain she leaves. I’m thinking that if the black bus is not the Dylan one it will be arriving between 6 and 7 p.m. (Dylan not always did the sound check in the Sates). So I wait in the rain, soaked wet, until a quarter to seven. Nothing happened.
I move to the entrance of the Arena and ask for a spare ticket. A scalper sales me one for 40€. Ok, I’m inside on the floor, far from the stage, but I will have the possibility of leaving before the end and find out about the Bus.
The show is good and fans are up to dance a little bit. No surprise. The sound is excellent.
I move out after “Ballad of a thin man”.
The two black buses are ready to go. The musicians pill up in the fist one. I see Mr X. running like crazy but no Barron. Two young guys are expecting an autograph. The first bus pulls out and it’s Bob’s bus (I believe).
Now I know He comes around 5.00 p.m. and stay in his bus until shortly after 9.00 p.m.
I say as usual “Bye Bye Bobby, good night!” and move rapidly to my bed. I had my “shot of love”.
2
The north of Europe
I
In the train
to London Waterloo.
The sun is
shining. My fever is gone. I still cough a bit, nothing too bad.
Don’t know
yet if I’m going to stay in London overnight or reach Lille
immediately, it will depend on my feelings. Quite confused at the
moment.
Over the time
the angle of the lights on stage will change and less and less we’ll
be able to see Bob's face; the hat will make a shade over his so
beautiful blue eyes.
The show will
now start at 9.15 p.m. for not even one hour and a half and only 14
songs.
My question
is again: what is HIS motivation?
In the
EuroStar going to Lille. A couple next to me is following the whole
Tour: a couple of U.K. BobCats. Didn’t talk too much yet. Wondering
what is their motivation. Never saw them by the Buses.
I’m hoping
to find a Hostel in Lille.
II
10/16
LILLE
Found the
Youth Hostel. Checked in for two nights. Central and close to the
Zenith; five minutes walk.
Good night,
nice shower, full breakfast.
I go to the
Fine Art Museum and stay in there until 3.00 p.m. Nice Atmosphere.
I then go
back to the Hostel make myself a strong cup of coffee and walk to the
Zenith.
At my
surprise there is already a line. There is a General Admission but
without a ticket I can’t get on the line. Nobody here that I know
to let me stay in the front.
I walk around
the Zenith to find black buses already parked in an inside parking
lot. No chance to spot anybody there.
I move back
to the front and start looking for a ticket. Five scalpers are making
things a bit difficult. They start at 150€ and up!?
I see the two
black Dylan buses arriving at the venue, passing in front of me. 4.45
p.m. As the show time is 8.00 p.m. tonight the sound check is later.
I search for
a ticket for hours. People selling no less than 63€ for General
Admission.
But I know
that by now I won’t be able to be in front so I don’t want to pay
that much. I won’t be able to see the stage anyway.
The scalpers
are making things extremely difficult. The English couple is also
looking for tickets, no more than 20/25 € (they say) plus 4 or 5
more BobCats.
At 8.00 p.m.
the line is still stretching outside the venue and I can hear Mark on
stage.
I start being
desperate. I can’t believe I won’t be able to get in Lille
France!
I freak out
while the English couple is confident. They always have been able to
get in.
A quarter to
nine the last scalper is selling his two last tickets to “friends”.
He screwed me. I’m mad and exhausted. Am I the only one left
outside?
It’s break
time and smokers are smoking in a security area outside the Hall. I
get close to them and suddenly realize one security gate is not
locked. I silently open it making sure not to be seen by the ushers
and sneak in. YES! Finally I’m IN!
Bob will be
on stage in five minutes, but the MAGIC is not falling on me. It had
been too much painful this time. Fighting with the scalpers and some
stupid French people: three times they have been individuals with
extra tickets but they refused my 20€ preferring going inside with
these extras and losing the benefit of 20€. How
stupid!
I’ve seen
Hugues Aufray getting in, but I’ve said nothing.
I’m now
faraway on the floor. Of course I don’t see anything.
It’s packed
and stuffing. The crowd next to me is young, a lot in their 20’s.
“Leopard
skin ..”
And nothing
too new. The songs are coming one next to the other, no time to
breath and no WAY to breathe.
The sound is
great: loud and clear.
The public
doesn’t move to much, static.
Observing,
judging the LEGEND, the Old Mad Man blowing out his lungs in his
harp!
Expecting him
to collapse any time?
Like in a
circus where unconsciously people expect the trapezist to fall down
and crash on the floor to have a rush of adrenaline?
It seems
suddenly also a BIG CIRCUS.
Even the
staccato “A hard rain’s agonna fall” doesn’t bring any sound
from the throng (from where I stand). Only “Like a rolling stone”
will awake the public.
The last note
and I move out for fresh air, not leaving the venue for we never
know.
And YES,
beyond all expectation, here, in Lille France, He’s coming for an
encore of “Forever young”. 15 songs including “Jolene”.
Whoa! I can’t
believe it, moving out with my brain in haze, stoned.
Too much
pressure, too much anxiety.
I seat on a
bench observing the Zenith vomiting is throng: 10 000 of anonymous
faces.
A Lady next
to me came from the east part of France. She doesn’t stop praising
Charley Sexton. She seems to be suddenly in Love with him!? Whoa!
Some comments
about the change in Mark Knopfler style. Not so much appreciated here
than in the U.K. Celtic music is not the style of the Northern
population.
Hugues Aufray
passes in front of me. I move. Present myself (a month ago we had had
a pleasant conversation on the phone about … Bob Dylan). But he’s
not “with” me. He just shakes hand with me, like I were a
Hugues Aufray’s fan!!??
I chat with
some English followers. Two are selling posters. One of them has been
to 600 shows all over Europe. The best record after Fed.. She has a
record of some 800 shows all over the world including Asia. Great!
She can be in the Quiz!
And I thought
I was a "nuts"?
I will meet
all of them later on the Road for sure.
Those two are
OK, nice chatting to them.
The English
couple is satisfied. They agree that the sound was good. I exchange
few words with the woman and ask if they have ever met Bob
personally.
They have
been following the Tours since 1978, totally or partially.
Not exactly,
she says. One time, she explains passionately, her voice quivering,
HE had sent her a butterfly kiss from the stage, recognizing her in
the front. -definitively he did something to his eyes and now can see
without correcting glasses.
She has seen
him checking in a Marriott Hotel, once, but he had returned quickly
to his bus as soon as He had recognized her. Even for so dedicated,
un-harmful Fans, no contact what so ever!?
III
10/17
PARIS
Arriving in
Paris by train at 11:06 a.m.
I’m
supposed to meet my friend Claude Angele Boni with her friend Roberto
from Italy. They’re coming from the South of France for two shows
in the North.
We all check
in at the Novotel next to Bercy Hall where Claude booked a room.
With Claude,
who is an Artist (one of her paintings is exposed at the Hibbing
Museum), we go to visit the Paul Cézanne exhibit in Musée du
Luxembourg. Expecting, secretly, to step on our “good artist
friend” Bob Dylan!? A lover of Cézanne.
We scan
thoroughly all the faces. Except if He’s disguised into some kind
of “worldly old woman of good society”, we don’t spot
him.
The Cézanne
paintings are exceptional though. Nice feeling discussing painting
technics with Claude.
After a quick
lunch in a café next to Bercy, we go by the parking lot. But at a
quarter to five we missed the arriving of Bob and his Band. They’re
already making the sound check.
The view from
the security rail to the Dylan’s bus is clear.
Claude
doesn’t mind missing Mark Knopfler set. She wants to join me and be
part of my “Dylan world” for a little while.
She’s met
Bob in the past but her approach has been different from mine. Using
her contacts with the Show Business World thanks to her beautiful way
of relating with people.
In 1981 it
took me stake and pain to be able to approach Bob. She just had to
say few words to Howard Alk to be able to end up in Bob’s room
Hotel in Avignon and spent some time with him sketching his hands and
feet.
And here we
are in this fall of 2011 waiting and waiting by the bus, using MY
way.
It’s not
efficient, making me suspicious in the eyes of the security staff.
But what kind
of conversation should I have with Barron or Mr X.?
We chat of
course about our sweet Bobby who’s right in front of us, mocking us
“I’m
locked in tight, I’m out of range”.
In that
black-gold-prison-cell.
We are only
us two and I’m wondering if Bob will walk the 20 meters or so from
his bus to the back stage door in front of us or not.
What kind of
trick they're going to play?
Shortly
before ten they are some movements from the security staff; Barron
moves by the bus and Mr X. is keeping an eye on us.
Bob steps out
all dressed for the stage, spots us and moves back behind the bus. He
speaks to Mr X.who moves now towards us.
I
instinctively open both my hands up, showing I’m not holding any
camera.
“What’s
your name?”
“Laurette”
To Claude
“What’s
your name?”
“Claude
Boni”.
I can’t
believe it! This guy actually TALKED to me!!?? Sweet voice too.
He moves back
to Bob for his report.
And to my
astonishment Bob Dylan decides to walk in front of us with no hood,
no “protection”. And He looks at us with insistence. I send him a
butterfly kiss. Claude has the nerve to shout, “We love you Bobby”
as an echo I shout, “We love you Bobby”.
Whoa!
Incredible!
Report from
my friend Claude Angele Boni
“
Yes,
I saw him... I saw Bob a little bit more than everyone else.
I
paid for myself to go, it was still difficult. When one wants to be a
Dylan fan, you should swallow your pride. As in "Like a Rolling
Stone", you are invisible and have no secrets to hide ...
"You're invisible now, you got no secrets to conceal"
You
want to know how it feels? "How Does It Feel?" you truly
feel little!
The first time I saw him this year was with my friend
Laurette who travels by train, with her backpack and has done this
dozens of times. I wanted to share the experience with her because I
admire her. I admire the courage she has to get free tickets to
concerts and to bargain until she finds a price she can afford.
In
front of the Bercy Hall in Paris on October 18, by 4:30 p.m. the
scalpers were there. It is always the same. They had grabbed all the
tickets for resale at double the regular price.
As one would
expect the prices to fall, we went and placed ourselves by the fence
where Bob's bus would be parking, watched closely by two Bercy
security guys and later Bob's men. To make ourselves a little more
invisible we started a conversation with them which managed to last
six hours.
There was no Bob for a long time, then, on the stroke
of 21H he finally came down smoking his cigarette, tucked away in the
small gap between two buses, with one of the musicians and another
person.
We
didn't see anything of him except his two skinny ankles in black
boots from below and then we realized. We saw that he hesitated,
walking in circles, and then he went back.
There was still half an
hour until it was time for him to go on stage. Knopfler's equipment
was being cleared and replaced by Bob's.
This was the
hardest time because it was dark and cold for a while. At 9:50pm
something finally happened. The second bodyguard for Bob, not Tabura
Barron, the other large "Mr X.".
He
approached us in no hurry, with a clenched jaw and steady gaze, and
asked us our names. He spoke to Laurette and me in a kind of 'cop
interrogation' style while Bob - all dressed and ready to go on stage
- leaned out from behind the bus to see us from afar.
Then
Mr X. returned to tell him our names, and Bob agreed to walk the
twenty yards that separated him from the stage door, looking in our
eyes ... without fear.
Sometimes there are too many fans at
the gate; it is twenty feet from the car!
The satisfaction of a
fan ... we were the last two people to have seen Bob before he took
the stage. We still managed to be the last two people outside his
circle to be seen by him before he goes to play.
He crossed
to the stage door when he heard the hoarse voice of Laurette
screaming and my broken voice shout, "We love you Bob."
The
satisfaction of a fan ... If Bob does not care about us, US, it
concerns us. We were delighted to have diverted him from his course
for a moment ... "When you ain't got nothing, you got nothing to
loose ".
“
Now waking up
from my dream and back into the reality of time I have to find a way
to get myself a ticket.
I move to the
entrance of Bercy but everything is empty, no more scalpers. Few more
people are looking for tickets. With a young man from India we go by
the A entrance just in case the security guard would be nice. But no
luck! I can hear Bob on stage and I feel like crying.
Not in Paris!
Not after having caught his attention and look!? I can’t be OUT?!
People move
out, leaving the venue. I ask why. They dislike the show, the sound,
not to their expectation … I ask for their tickets stubs but as
they are already scanned the ushers are not allowing a re-entrance.
By chance (thanks GOD!) a nice Lady passes me a V.I.P. ticket still
unused. I rush in and seat anywhere I can, at the top of the “bowl”
but I’m IN.
The Hall is
huge, the sound is effectively bad but never before I have felt so
HAPPY; Bob Dylan is on stage representing so much for so many of
these 16 000 individuals; the Living LEGEND, the ICON, the Rock and
Roll Poet, the REBEL, the Untouchable, the Unapproachable, the
Hermit, the Recluse …
I, have seen
him so close just few minutes ago!
IV
10/19
ANTWERPE
I’m at the
train station waiting for the 11:00 a.m. train to Rotterdam.
My mood took
a 360° angle turn.
Facts:
My friend
Claude will join one of her Dylan contacts in Antwerp so we splitted.
I checked in
a Youth Hostel in center town. New and clean. Washed my laundry in
the shower room and let it dry by the heater. Then as usual took a
walk in the City.
I stepped on
Mr X. not far from the Hilton, so I guess that’s where they are
staying.
I walk and
walk the streets around, scrutinizing each and every face, expecting
to see Barron, and if you see Barron make sure Bob is not far. So
much for his invisibility!
By 8:00 p.m.
tired and cold I decide to give up and move to my room. No luck!
Next morning
after a good breakfast (the breakfasts are my only descent meals of
my days so excuse me if I insist on them) I went to visit Ruben’s
House. A beautiful mansion decorated with exquisite test for Art. A
wonder for the eyes and the soul.
Bought myself
a second hand book: the memoirs of Elie Wiesel.
At 4.00 p.m.
I decide to check the Hilton entrance. I meet there Claude and three
of her friends.
The two black
buses are being loaded, one slightly away from the entrance. The one
I believe being the Dylan’s bus. They load a bicycle and a guitar.
I wait by the
side of THIS bus, being the only one when then Claude decides to join
with me.
Four or five
Fans are by the main entrance of the Hilton.
Wait half an
hour with the engine of the bus running and the font door wide open.
The driver being nervous, looking here and there.
I expect to
see Bob walking with his two guards by a side little street on my
left. But what do we know about God’s plan?
The bus
suddenly pulls back, Barron (who was IN the bus) steps out running to
the musicians' bus parked at the main entrance of the Hilton, jumps
in it and the two buses pull away.
Where is BOB?
I figure that
he also jumped in the musicians’ bus avoiding passing in front of
Claude and me.
I can’t
believe it! That paranoia again?!
Claude tells
me stories from yesterday:
Her friends
and herself found out Bob was staying at the Hilton (not too hard in
Antwerp!). By 9:00 p.m. they went in the lobby wanting for Bob to
come back from his walk out.
How they knew
he was out? Intuition? Information?
At 10:00 p.m.
Anneke sees Bob dressed casual (“like a young Turk” will say
Claude) accompanied by Barron. He’s trying to avoid the few Fans by
the entrance but Anneke trapped him by a side door and confronts him;
“Hi! Bob Dylan may I check your hand?” and …
He gave her a
kiss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She had met
him in 1992. She had attracted his attention ‘cause she was wearing
around her neck the Jewish sign called ‘haim’ (LIFE). He had then
agreed to sit with her for a 30 minutes conversation about Judaism:
comparison between Judaism in U.S.A. and Europe.
Did he
remember her from then?
Anneke will
tell me later that she has contact with Jesse Dylan, Bob’s oldest
son: a movie producer in Hollywood.
At that exact
moment Claude also approached him to say hello. Telling me later that
he does look pretty fit, sparks of life shining from his beautiful
blue eyes.
Report
from Claude Boni:
“
This
time I was with my friend Anneke. Another fan, another style.
When
she arrives to meet with Bob it happens in places as chic as she is
herself - a distinguished woman, large and imposing, with piercing
blue eyes and persuasive manner.
As she had predicted we
would see him, I followed along.
After a short walk around
the Cathedral in the middle of a demonstration by students in lab
coats, we went to take Art Nouveau seats in the lobby of the Hilton,
in the warmth under the yellow lights, to begin our wait for
Bob.
There was already another woman at table, discrete, in
a strategic position, who confirmed that Bob was there and he was
going to leave at 23H.
Anneke was like a lioness hunting, scenting
prey, and she moved back and forth outside.
Going for a
cigarette, she came upon some musicians and road managers, there was
no doubt something would happen - she only wanted to see Bob.
Finally
to 10:30 she wanted to go out again and this time I followed her.
It
all happened very quickly, as I watched the demonstration of the
students take a more hysterical turn, she saw Bob go.
"Claude
come quickly, it's Bob."
Bob ..?
I
saw only two rappers who walked side by side in no hurry..
"Anneke
it's not Bob, it's a young Turk.. You're wrong." This small
figure in white jogging pants and gray sweatshirt with hood with a
visor cap? Is that Bob?
I did not believe it; to me it was a
Turk.. Anneke started running and then Bob and Barron Tabur went to
the second door to the left of the place. Anneke ran to the front
door and disappeared into the Hilton in seconds.
Intrigued,
I still accelerated my pace. Arriving in the room I saw that she
spoke with the little Turk who was fixed, fascinated before her ...
and I thought I recognized a bodyguard.
I approached the
scene slowly, as if I was trying to do a number as a tamer in the
circus.. Still doubtful.
Coming to within one meter of Bob I
recognized his profile ... Anneke was still animatedly talking to him
but I was so enthralled that I forget what she was saying.
I
went within 50 inches of him and I faced him, ignoring the presence
of the Barron and then came out of my ridiculous mouth ... two words.
I spoke to him in French, with round eyes, I said, "Hello Bob
"as if I was speaking to someone familiar.
He looked at me
blankly, eyes filled with Modigliani blue, and he did not answer.
Barron took the opportunity to say something like, "We gotta go
now" at least I think so, because I felt like I was in a
dream.
I saw Bob in black and white, I was amazed at his
complexion so clear, his faded eyes, they were almost transparent,
inconsistent, like an apparition, a ghost.
I had already met
Bob several times before and in much better conditions. But the fact
of being a fan, being forced to behave like a complete unknown "a
complete unknown, Like a Rolling Stone", had plunged me into a
trance.
Barron and Bob walked away with hurried steps
through the corridors of the Hilton and I kept saying, "It's not
possible, it was really Bob and I did not believe it!"
Outside
in the dark and without my glasses I could not distinguish the
features of Bob that I recognize from many of the photos. That is to
say, Bob on stage, the star made up with rosy cheeks, the heavy
costumes black and heavy ...
This little chap who walked
before me with a run that made him bow-legged, I took for a Turk
because Bob would be in his uniform of 'Lord-of-all-the
World'.
Anneke told me she shook hands and he held out his cheek
... Anneke has powers, she has a sixth sense, if you really want to
see Bob, follow Anneke closely...
”
(But Anneke
will tell me at the concert hall that it will be her last attended
show. She also had been following for years all around Europe, with a
better style than mine I believe. She will explain to me with disdain
that she doesn’t like THIS, pointing to the crowd; thousands
of Fans packed in a huge “bowl”. She also wants Bob for
herself?!)
That was last
night.
Now I start to feel bad; jealousy I guess. He just refused
to see me by playing this game of “cat and mouse”.
We talk and
talk with Claude (who had decided to stay with me rather than
following Anneke). We’re balancing between Love and Hatred; two
extremes of a same feeling?
We catch a tram to the concert
hall and since Claude doesn’t want to spoil her pleasure with Mark
Knopfler set, we go to a bar. We have a drink (Tea for me, never any
alcohol on the Road). And we talk a bit more about … Bobby.
It’s
easy talk with Claude for she’s no ‘nuts’ - she DID meet Bob -
she’s smart, human, sensible, sensitive and with that integrity I
like so much in people, including Bob Dylan.
Even if we don’t
have the same approach we’re finally looking for the same result: a
little bit of attention and consideration from someone we admire so
much as an Artist as well as a Man. Someone who inspires us both in
our drawings and paintings.
But he gave a kiss to Anneke.
Claude
says she’s a wealthy Jew. I found her snobbish and arrogant, the
kind that of course will be Bob Dylan social class, a courtesan.
All to please him.
Who are we? Two poor little girls running after
the Charming Prince in a far far away country!
So ridiculous
for we’re no girls anymore. So what?
Of course that kind
of mood will influence my reaction to the show.
Found a
ticket at a reasonable price (25€). Get in and try to shit the
security by moving close to the stage. No luck! They push me back. I
can see well for the public is politely sited in the front, not even
standing when He appears on the right of the stage. The Hall is huge
(16000) but quiet and polite.
Bob is equal to
himself, me, I don’t feel the Magic. I feel like crying
specifically that he will do “Forgetful heart” tonight.
Anneke
told me He’s doing all that Touring for money
-“to
provide for his 4 wives and 9 children”- !!??
That kiss turned
her head?!
At the end of
the show I meet the English couple who just found the security tough.
T. and his friend K. are selling posters (still don’t know what are
their motivations for seeing so many shows). Fed. is bitter or over
excited. What does she expect? How will she end? Can’t Dylan tell
her to go home and live a real life? How cruel?
I’ve seen
that auburn-haired woman again in the bus. His girl friend, his
hidden wife?
Since weeks and even months I have not dreamed any
Dylan dream, nothing coming back spontaneously to my mind in the
morning. I believe in my dreams, many come true as a premonition. But
my subconsciousness is apparently not focused on Dylan. No strong and
deep feelings moving me deep inside. I even “fear” meeting him.
Like if I meet him that will be the end of all. Waking up from a 37
years old dream could be deathly painful.
Claude told me
that she had that feeling the night she spent with Bob. In the
morning she run away. Freaking out!
21/10 In the
train to Esch sur Alzette (where ever it is!).
I will be arriving
at 4.00 p.m. so I’m not sure if I’ll be able to get to the front
row tonight. Again it is standing like last night in ...
V
10/20
ROTTERDAMI went to the Ahoy after
checking in at the Youth Hostel. At 2.30 p.m. there is already a
handful of people. I buy myself a ticket for 82€ (contributing to
provide the alimony of Bob Dylan’s 4 wives and 9
children!!).
And the waiting starts … Too long. I’m sick
of it.
Gates open at 6.15 p.m. and we all run in the front. But
some 20 “shmucks” are already camping in the front : V.I.P.
package.
Fed. is on the left side, hanging on the rail (as if it’s
gonna fly away in a tornado!).
Two Italian BobCats, Rita and her
cousin, are nice enough to let me move front.
One more hour to
wait for Mark Knopfler and one hour and a half more for Bob. It’s a
folly that wasting of time!
Rita doesn’t
even bother to stand up for Mark Knopfler and his band: she’s sited
down the floor, her back to the rail. So is Fed. most of the time. It
doesn’t seem to disturb Mark Knopfler a bit.
I stand up for I
don’t dislike the set.
Then in a deafening roar and a
movement of the wave crushing the front row to the rails He’s on
his keyboard. “Leopard skin pill box hat”.
Equal to
himself: banging on that battered keyboard and sweating in his heavy
suit.
Tonight he’ll do “Mississippi” immediately
recognized by some Fans next to me, BobCats for sure, some have been
in the U.K.
Fed. is acting enthusiastic at first, then I see her
being static with a nostalgic attitude
”you
look so fine at first
But
left looking just like a ghost.”
800
shows or more have some effect on her!
Bobby being so close
and still without reach.
I don’t believe her stories though
there might be some truth at times. After so many hopes and
frustrations we mix up reality and dream: I know the effect.
”You’re
a man of the mountains, you can walk on the clouds
Manipulator of
crowds, you’re a dream twister”
I
don’t believe I could do what I do now for the next 13 years.
But
my experiences are different. Bob in the “past” was approachable
and there was some real hope to meet with him. Now I don’t believe
that will happen and I’m tired to think and try.
Talking with
BobCats on the line I found that each person has his own story, own
knowledge, own image of Bob Dylan ; “he’s like this or like that.
He wants this or he wants that. He will hate you if you go by the bus
… bla bla bla”.
What I was apparently the only one and first
one doing in 1981 (according to Howard Alk) - that is following a
whole Tour without asking anything to the Staff member – is done
now by a bunch of Fans from the 90’s, since the beginning of the
“never ending Tour” (give us a better word for it Bob). It’s
not the Dead Head “family” though. The BobCats being
individualist. We can feel jealousy and fear.
I recovered now from
that kiss he gave to Anneke. The wound is closed. There
is a scar.
VI
10/21 ESCH
SURS ALZETTEIt was a long way to reach
Esch/Alzette in Luxembourg. Some 8 hours of walking, riding on train,
waiting, riding again.
I started to read the
Memoirs of Elie Wiesel and time passed faster and spirit rised up
again.
Wiesel is a true Humanitarian, a Tzadikk.
I reach Esch
at 5.30 p.m. with no hope to be able to stand at the front row. So I
decide to take my time and just buy a seat ticket for 20€ or so.
Hang around the buses.
But what do we know about God’s plan?
I
reach the Rockhal after checking in a really expensive Hotel (no
other choice in Esch).
Rita and her cousin are queuing in first
spot on the line. I say hello. I start my search for a ticket. Buy a
standing for 75€ (expensive day since I paid 82€ for my
room). I join Rita and her cousin and I’m right in the front of the
line. My luck of the day!
We run, run, run and we all are at the
exact same position as yesterday. The same old Cats on my left and
right.
A little girl of 10 or 12 came to see
Mark Knopfler so I move slightly back to allow her to appreciate the
Knopfler Band. A young fellow is a Dire Straits Fan, taking photos
like crazy. He’s lucky it’s not Bob on stage and Barron is not in
the pit yet!
He will leave right after Knopfler set. It’s pretty
rare. The crowd is all standing for there is no seat!!?? All standing
for Dylan.
”Ladies and gentlemen…”
And guess what? Mark
Knopfler is on stage, jamming three songs with Bob. The little girl
is happy.
Bob is happy too, that is, as much as he allows himself
to show.
I’m not mad at him anymore. For now He’s wearing his
Bob Dylan mask.
With Rita and Fed. we dance and sing and scream
and secretly pray and encourage him; Bobby our sweet Love.
It
hurts me when he’s blowing in his harp. He’s blowing his lungs
out. He’s dripping sweat!
The show is splendid! The public well
responding. The Magic is back.
The solos of Mark were unexpected
in that specific RockHal (with no seats!). Why here? But Dylan has no
logic. Does he know where he is? Which date today?
Fed. left at
“The ballad of a thin man”, going to wait for the leaving of the
bus. I’ve done it so many times but tonight I prefer to enjoy Bob
on stage until the end. After all he’s right in front of me, even
if I have to share him with 10 000 “anonymous”.
It seems that
at the ending-salute he sees me! Big illusion! Poor me!
I take a
train back to the Hotel and sleep well until morning.
If I dreamed
of Bob, I don’t remember.
At 70 he has still the attention and
Love of many women. A lot in the front row last night.
But he has
been seen alone walking the streets of Anvers. Alone? No. With
Barron: the oldmansitter.
In Oberhausen
(Germany) I will see Rita and her cousin and Fed. (can’t escape
her!) and T. and K. and the “ tall Man with the gray moustache”
and the three women from Holland and more from the U.K. and The Fan
Club from Germany. Is there any Fan who has not seen Dylan yet on
stage?
Bob Dylan broke so many records. He might have the record
of the longest and most dedicated Fans all around the world.
Bob Dylan is
a phenomenon, so huge … but so fragile when you see him close.
-I heard that
they liberated Gilat Shalit in exchange for 1000 terrorists.
-I
heard they shot down Khadafi.
-I heard the economy is bad
-I
heard people rioting
We live in a “Political world”.
I feel
detached from it. So Bob Dylan certainly. He’s looking at the world
through a hole in his bubble. A distorted reality of life.
I will write
from my Elie Wiesel book :
”Do we write because we are happy or
because we are not? A midrashic legend tells that King Salomon wore a
ring that has the power to make him happy when he was sad and sad
when he was happy. Question: why should he want to be sad when he had
the luck of being happy?
Salomon was Jewish and a writer: never
content.
Should we laugh or cry?
Crying is sowing, said the
Maharal of Prague, laughing is harvesting. Writing is at the same
time sowing and harvesting.”
Bob Dylan,
who are you? A King Salomon?
VII
10/23
OBERHAUSENI’m now all alone in that
youth Hostel in Oberhausen. I’m reading Elie Wiesel. His
life has been so full. I’m wondering what I’m doing here in
Germany, waiting for a Dylan show?
Can’t I use my life and my
time and my energy (and my money) for a more useful project? Saving
children’s life in Africa? Praying in an Ashram in India for the
souls of the wretched? Investing myself in an Ecologic movement to
save Mother Earth? Join a protest movement to fight the injustices of
this gloomy world?
Bob Dylan songs have no impact anymore:
“Masters of war” doesn’t bring throngs of protesters in the
streets to bring Peace in Afghanistan or Irak or Israel. How could
when he also wrote “Neighborhood bully”, justifying the use of
arms against Iran? There are some bad wars and there are some good
wars? Who decides? Who separates the Good from the Bad?
And what to
make of “Like a rolling stone “ ;
”Once
upon a time you dressed so fine
You threw the bums a dime in your
prime, didn’t you?
People’d call, say, “Beware doll, you’re
bound to fall”
You thought they were all kiddin’ you
You
used to laugh about
Everybody that was hangin’ out”
Three
quarter of his public is that Doll (middle class Yuppies). At
what level they feel involved in the meaning of
these words?
And himself? Could he imagine being
”with no
direction home
A complete unknown
A rolling
stone”
All except ‘A complete unknown’.
I wish he could
erase that song from his set list.
I go to the
Arena slightly before 4.00 p.m. See Fed. waiting at the gates. The
two buses are pulling in. Sound check time. The parking lot is
closed. No way to have a glimpse of him.
I take a walk around the
Arena. It’s some kind of recreational area. It’s Sunday. The
families are enjoying themselves in a relative nice day, cool but
sunny.
The scalpers are not making the finding of a cheap ticket
easy. Nonetheless a young chap sells me one for 25€. Also the
English couple will get two for 50€. We go together for a bite
before the Dylan set. They also skip Knopfler when ever possible.
Our
seats are far away so we sneak in a bit closer to the stage. Bob is
small but the sound is clear and I can dance, standing up. They want
to seat, not me.
They finally present each other: the man is C.,
American from California but living in England and the woman S.,
Irish living in England. Nice, decent BobCats.
My stories about
Bob don’t impress them so much. Either they don’t believe me,
either they’re jealous for they never really met Bob in person. And
opposite to what most of the BobCats say they all want secretly to
meet him. Some will pay the price like Fed. and some will hide behind
some pseudo-philosophic explanation, trying to give themselves a good
consciousness and make me feel guilty (for hanging around the
bus).
Mark Knopfler in on stage with Bob now
for three or four songs.
A young man told me that one of the
Knopfler’s musician is writing a Blog. He wrote that in
Esch-Sur-Alzette Bob and Mark Knopfler had had a half hour
conversation in the buses parking lot. Deciding to play
together?
This show is good, Bob and the musicians trying to
“torch the night” but the public is not responding. Even “highway
61” doesn’t move the crowd.
They’re a static old bunch of
Yuppies! Even some are leaving! Shame on you!
Tonight I want
to say goodbye to Bob so I get out before the end (shame on me!).
I
position myself on the side of the road. The two buses pass in front
of me. Mr X. has a good look at me. Big deal! I say my ritual “ bye
bye Bobby, good night”.
Move to my
Youth Hostel bed.
Get up at
6.00 a.m. and quickly pack up. Catch the first train to Mannheim. No
show tonight.
Mannheim is packed with amateurs of Theater. I have
to check in the Youth Hostel in Eidelberg. Easy ride by train and
beautiful Hostel. I take a chance to do my laundry: washer and dryer
(what a luxury!).
VIII
10/25
MANNHEIMI go to Mannheim. Visit the
Castle of Philippe something. Roccoco style (my favorite in Art, in
paintings [the three Roccco ; Fragonard, Watteau, Boucher] as well as
in Architecture and classical music [Bach, Vivaldi, Haendel]).
At
3.00 p.m. I move towards the SAP Arena. Find myself with Fed. on the
train. Not exchange a word. I will stay away from her for in
Oberhausen Barron called the parking lot security police on her. They
asked her to move away from the back stage gates. As well as after
the show. She screamed after Barron! Funny because that guy seems to
me more sympathetic than before. I like his look. Though I’m not
sure to be able to have a long conversation with him in the near
future!? He’s been with Dylan since at least 1994. He must be good!
But what kind of life is that? I haven’t seen so many girls
around!
Here in Mannheim, again the parking lot is closed. The
buses arrive at 3.45 p.m. So soon!
At 5.00 p.m. I see Bob walking
back to his bus all covered up in a gray sweater.
Now the waiting
again, the search for a ticket.
Someone sells me a comp
ticket for 20€, on the floor.
Good seat but the Magic doesn’t
work. The public is cold, polite, not moving.
Mark will be
on stage for five songs including a splendid “John Brown” after
“Mississippi”.
It will take a magnificent “Thunder on the
mountain” to see people standing up or bobbing their head. At the
first note of “Ballad of a thin man” we hear finally a big roar
and some Fans rush from the back. I join happily!
Three
security guards stop us in our impulse. Never mind I’m mixed with a
bunch of joyous fellows. Finally my “Shot of love”.
Waiting for
the train to München.
I will have to go back home on the 1st of
November. Business affairs. I will skip the three shows in the up
North. Will I have the spirit to come back?
I would like to do the
Italian leg. Never been to Italy. I’d like to visit the museums.
I
meet the English couple at the train station; C. and S.. They’re
not willing to share with me so much. BobCats are individualists,
following their own dreams. They’re a couple sustaining one
another.
IX
10/26
MUNCHENMünchen is a crazy town. Too much
noise and movement. Too much poverty too. I didn’t have the time to
visit Dachau. But I didn’t really want to go there. Too many ghosts
are haunting the place. What do they care about my compassion.
My
own ‘ghost’ arrived at the Olympiahalle in the early afternoon.
The buses are parked in an open parking lot. I hang around. At 5.00
p.m. a brown van pulls by the Dylan bus.
My Bobby gets off the
van, all dressed in brown leather suit (with hood on his head) and
steps in his bus. Then steps in the van again which pulls away. Visit
a friend? So Dandy!
I keep my stand by the bus. 30 to 45 minutes
later the van comes back. Bob steps in his bus again with a Lady
(can’t figure out if she’s the Lady from the bus or someone
else).
Barron takes position. Nothing will
happen before show time.
The search for a ticket is tough, many
people awaiting for a spare-one. The prices are high. Close to 9.00
p.m. someone tells me they’re still selling at the box office. At
the last minute I buy myself a standing for 67€ (my contribution
for the buying of another brown-leather-suit, so Dandy!). My hostel
booking was modestly a 15€ bunk in a shared-room.
Shortly before
9.00 p.m.
I hide from the security. As soon as the bus door opens
I move closer to the ramp leading to the back stage door. Bob walks
to the stage all dressed up with a white hat. I make a sign to
Barron.
I move inside the hall and find myself standing at the top
of the bowl, on the side of the stage. I’m in. I’m wondering if
C. and S. got tickets tonight.
(later they will tell me that they
sneaked in through the smoking area, curiously outside the venue).
Fed. is in. She’s playing a little game with her sign “Please, I
need a free ticket”. I doubt she got a free ticket tonight.
Mark
Knopfler is in for three songs then … “Man in a long black
coat”.
Funny for I was day-dreaming in the afternoon :
”I
was approaching Bob just before the show and saying “Bobby ‘Man
in the long black coat’, please Bobby”.
Did
he hear me in HIS dream?
The public is cold until “Thunder on
the mountain” and like last night a movement from the throng awaken
the whole hall, fans rush in the front, screaming.
Bob is happy
(how do I know? feelings). He moves to Tony and says something in his
ear ”Forever young” (how do I know? I know that’s all!).
I’m
out waiting for the buses to pull away.
”Bye bye Bobby, good
night”.
MY night is short. Up at 5.45 a.m. to catch a train to
Leipzig. I hope being able to sleep in that train (Bound for Glory!
Woody you’ve been on my mind).
X
10/27
LEIPZIGNice Hostel by the train station.
Walking distance to the Leipzig Arena. Walk there in the afternoon.
The 5 buses are already parked in an enclosed parking lot but I doubt
Bob is in there. No security around the bus. Ironically his personal
security (Barron and Mr X.) are giving him up. No Barron, no Bob. We
might not recognize Bob in the streets (disguised as a young Turk)
but Barron is not invisible. A Samouraï and a young Turk! What a
strange couple!
At 3.30 p.m. the buses left to pick them up. By
4.45 p.m. the buses are unloading Bob and his Band strait by the
stage door.
Shortly before five Bob is stepping inside his bus,
all hooded up. That stupid Fed. screams after him. Immediately they
turn the bus over so we don’t even see the door.
I
will see him walking to the stage door between the buses and the
trucks, all dressed up with his white hat, shortly after 9.00 p.m.
for his 16th show
on that European Fall Tour.
I bought myself a seat on the floor
for 50€ hoping for a movement of the crowd (I can’t initiate that
movement, it has to come from more than one person. But I will be
part of it. For God sake it’s a Rock and Roll show, not a
philharmonic orchestra!).
The rush to the stage will happen before
“Thunder on the mountain”. I move quickly forcing the security
guards. We had had a surprising “Girl of the north country” at
the beginning with Mark Knopfler on guitar.
Now
we are crushed against the rails, some youngsters are hysterical but
Bobby is right in front of me. I’m front row, looking intensely at
his face. He looks younger and thinner. Did he loose some weight?
Good Bobby, we don’t want you to look like an old fatty! I have a
glimpse at his clear blue eyes, Azurin blue, translucent. He’s
beautiful. Not grinning, almost serene, like a Buddha. Hoops! not so
for he’s screaming out the lyrics of his songs. And he’s dripping
on his battered keyboard all the liquid of his frele body.
Though
we tried hard to encourage him, no “Forever young” tonight.
The
lights are on, the cloudy vapors of a dream are vanishing.
The
Ghost has disappeared and has taken with
him all his Magic and all the mystery embedded
in his clear blue eyes.
I had my “shot of Love” after a
gloomy day, playing Cat and Mouse with Barron (the Last Samouraï).
I meet in the
front ALL the BobCats, they have their way: my English couple, Ryan,
two girls following since Luxembourg, a grey-hair-man I also spotted
in Luxembourg and many more I recognize at glance. We’ll all be in
Berlin in two days from now.
XI
10/28
BERLIN
I checked in
an A.O. Hostel in Berlin., a kind of Youth Hostel Chain.
I walked
from the central train station, surprised and astonished to see so
many huge buildings. The streets were packed with tourists. I heard
French speaking, might be the Fall break in France, Fall Holidays. I
don’t even know which day of the week we are, might be also
week-end. I joined the throng in the afternoon, walking and walking
(but I “ain’t talkin’”! I love that song). In the evening
bought myself some dinner and watched C.N.N. (T.V. in the room,
supreme luxury).
-Lybia is in
chao.
-Tunisia is rioting.
-Syria not doing much
better.
The Muslim world is in Anarchy. Good or
Bad? will Democracy take precedence over religious
fanaticism?
- Kampuchea is under water
- water is failing in
Africa
- Turkia was checked out by an Earth Quake
- Spain is
un-employed
- Greece is bankrupt (How a whole country can be
Bankrupt?).
I feel detached as if I don’t
belong to this Chaotic mess.
I hate the
days off. Nothing to do in the evening. No waiting by Bob bus, no
search for a ticket, no anxiety before the show, no rush of
adrenaline when Bob appears on stage.
No “trip on
the Magic swirling ship”, no “Tambourine man”, no “Shot of
Love”.
I fall asleep
to be awaken at 9.00 p.m. by a young Lady checking in, for as usual
I’m in a dorm (6 beds). It’s less expensive but also less
private. Her old father helps her to make her bed. So sweet.
I
hope that Bob was able to visit peacefully Berlin, got lost in the
throng of tourists.
Or did he miss the standing ovation as
much as I missed his rough voice?
XII
10/30 in
the train to HAMBOURG
I’m leaving
Berlin with mixed feelings.
On the 29th I went to
the Fine Art Museum. Nice paintings, mainly from German painters I
never heard about. I recognized some style: Italian Renaissance,
Romantic, Impressionist. I’m truly impressed by the technique of
Preyer, his fruits and flowers look more real than reality. I bought
myself a post card to remember his name.
As I was
walking back to my Hostel I spotted the 3 black buses (2 Dylan’s
and one Knopfler) at 3.00 p.m. They’re going to pick up the Bands.
I moved quickly to the O2 World for they’ll be back for the sound
check at 4.00 p.m. I positioned myself at the gate just in time to
see them entering the parking lot. It seems that Bob is stepping out
the musicians’ bus, but he’s so far. It’s hard to see. One guy
is waiting to get an autograph from Mark Knopfler. Not the right
time/not the right place. Since I have nothing better to do I wait
until 5.00 p.m.. He’s walking his “drunkard's walk” back
to his bus with his hood on his head.
I have
the sensation that he’s looking in my direction, so stupidly I clap
my hands. Don’t ask me to be rational anymore: I’m exhausted
beyond reason. I start talking to a Lady who’s pretty negative
about finding a spare ticket but I just think that she doesn’t
know. She’s also negative about the security, extremely tough she
says. I start looking for a ticket. The scalpers are doing their
work. It’s sold out and the prices are high. To make it worst a lot
of people are looking for spare tickets. A young fellow came from
Prague and he’s playing Bob Dylan songs on his guitar to make some
money. Then C. and S. are joining the group and Fed. (who probably
has already bought a ticket) and young couples … It’s getting
cold and desperate. Right after Mark Knopfler set people are leaving
the venue. We ask for their tickets and try to get in. The security
is effectively tough. No way to re-enter, this is the rule, they say.
We wait and wait and in my greatest despair I go by the bus spotting
Mr X. and Barron but I don’t have the guts to call them and ask for
an entry. Not the right persons.
Bob steps out of his bus by 9.00
p.m., all dressed up with his white hat. That will be the only image
of Bob Dylan I will have in Berlin.
We are now
only 5 fans waiting to get in, but noway to argue with the security.
Two youngsters are thrown out the venue. Then a man is expelled out
violently. Six security guards are wrestling with him, crushing him
to the ground. C. and I approach the scene and we start yelling at
them. We call them fascists and Nazis (maybe not appropriate). We
yell that Germany is a terrible country. We yell that Bob Dylan
should not be playing in Berlin. We are full of anger. At the same
time more and more people are leaving the venue. I ask why. They
raise their shoulders or they answer that the sound is bad, his
voice is bad, the show is bad … bla bla bla.
I just scream
in my anger “But We Love Him, we want to see Him, we want to get
inside”.
One charitable Lady comes with me to the door with her
ticket and argue in German that she’s willing to give me her seat,
in vain. The main security guard is unbreakable. “it’s the rule”
he says. I explain that I understand the rule but at this level it’s
more a question of humanity: 5 fans want to get in a show, taking the
seats of people leaving. The show is sold out, the tickets have been
paid for and we are not drunk or anything. Until the last minute we
will argue while more and more individuals are getting out,
disappointed. We can’t believe someone would pay 100€ for a seat
and not stay until the end! A bunch of Yuppies!
The Tour in
Germany is turning into a nightmare
’Their
heart is as hard as leather”
The Berlin
O2World should be banned from any Dylan Tour. Too much violence and
hardship. It doesn’t fit the Dylan spirit.
I will read a review
on the Internet saying that effectively the sound was bad. One more
reason not to play at the O2 World in Berlin.
At 10.30 p.m. the
show is almost over. First time in all my crazy following over the
years that I had not been able to get in, one way or another. It’s
a terrible feeling!
I go by the bus. A glimpse of Bob getting in
his bus. “Bye bye Bobby, good night”.
Did he realize how many
people were leaving the venue?
Does he make the difference between
this or that public, this or that venue?
Does he have the power to
make things easier for the dedicated Fans?
What about a “standing”
everywhere: standing for the Fans and sitting for the Yuppies?
The
young Fan from Prague didn’t make it in, he’s now singing Dylan’s
songs for a left over of public hopefully satisfied with the
show.
I’m deadly cold and bluesy. I walk to my room as a zombie.
I sleep a tormented sleep.
XIII
10/30 Hamburg
At 9.00 a.m.
a good breakfast (all you can eat) for 4€. I then walk as fast as
my tired legs carry me to the Haupt Bannhof in Berlin. Catch a train
at 11.00 a.m. to Hamburg. Check in the A.O. Hostel for 24€ for two
nights. Best offer so far.
Though I’m tired
I decide to take a walk in the area. I don’t regret it. The
buildings are majestic, from the Prussian Empire? Heavily built from
red bricks and copper (?). The city is divided by canals, the water
is ubiquitous. It’s Sunday and the families are strolling along the
canals, crossing the bridges, sipping a cappuccino, chatting
peacefully in a cool but sunny air. The trees are dressed
in their autumnal coats: yellow, brown, red and a
tinge of green. I would like to sit down for hours and
paint the changes of colors following the
curve of the sun. Monet would have been fascinated by so much
tint.
I recover from by bad mood. Get inside
the most magnificent red-black bricks church I can find opened and
say a little blessing for my dear Bobby. I hope he had the pleasure
of a little walk in peace. If I see him, I promise, I won’t bother
him.
I take a nice
shower and finish to read my Elie Wiesel book. Ending by a marriage
in an old synagogue, in old Jerusalem. Mazel tov!
I dream being
back in Israël, in kibbutz Gazit with my good friend Ami or in
kibbutz Mashabe Sade with my good friend Pushy. So far the country
and people I find the most comfortable with. Dreaming to end my life
in the Negev, where the silence is telling me so much. If there is a
God, his kingdom is Zion. That’s where I will find the answers to
my prayers. Thinking of joining a small farm, raising goats and
fowls. Surviving on bread, olives, goats’ cheese, like the
Bedouins. Forgetting but not forgiving the follies of men.
XIV
10/31
HAMBURG
"It’s
a new morning".
For me it’s the end of the first
European Fall Tour.
“I don’t
know when I’ll be comin’ back again
It depends on how I’m
a-feelin’”
I take a U
(underground) to reach the O2 World. I fear that it will be the same
structure as in Berlin. I fear the nightmare from Berlin so I
immediately buy a ticket at the Box Office. 69.67€ for a perch on
the top of a bowl. Outrageous!
At 4.30 p.m.the two black buses
enter the parking lot, down below a walking path. I find myself right
on top of Dylan bus. Weird!
At 5.30 p.m the auburn-haired
Lady spots me, calls immediately Barron. Few seconds later Barron
raises his eyes and has a good look at me. I don’t blink. Bob
literally jumps in his bus, all hooded ; “the little hooded
Bob”.
They figure out that the spot of the
bus is not the most secured, as any “nuts” could jump on it.
But
I don’t see any “nuts” around to the exception of me and of
course Fed.. But paranoia has no reasonable logic. So they move the
bus and the ‘crazy old man’ in it.
He’ll stay in his
black-gold-prison-cell until 9.00 p.m.
I move
to the front of the Arena looking for C.. S. had to go back home for
some days of work (yes, the BobCats have to work!). I meet there T.,
K., R., two girls following since Luxembourg, two more from Germany,
the tall-english-grey-hair-man: the bunch of BobCats doing the German
leg. The tall-English-grey-hair-man says that it’s his last concert
on this Tour. He explains that he had spent more money on the half
European Tour than on a whole U.S.A. Tour last Fall. The tickets’
budget in Europe is exploding the total budget: traveling, rooms,
food .. It’s also my problem. We help C. to get a spare ticket for
25€ with success. We’re ALL IN tonight. Great!
I take my perch
for the ‘Mark Knopfler and Band’ set. I don’t dislike it so
much as Leon Russel set.
Mark Knopfler will chat with the public:
same remarks, same jokes. He’ll make a point of honor to give the
name of the city where he’s playing.
Dylan
probably doesn’t even know where he is or what day of the week we
are or if he has a public in front of him. Or am I completely
wrong?
”Ladies and gentlemen…”
”Leopard-skin
pill-box hat”. He must Love that hat!
And oh surprise! the first
lines of “Boots of Spanish leather”. Whoa! It’s right into my
spirit:
“I don’t know when I’ll be
comin’ back again
It depends on how I’m a-feelin’”.
He
heard me in His dream?
I sing along for I know
that one by heart, and who cares if I’m not in tune.
The usual
“Things have changed”. A statement for me and some Fans from the
past.
”People are crazy and times are strange…” coming from
the mouth of Dylan, I don’t know what to make of it. Does he
include himself in People? He should. Being 70 years old, a
multimillionaire and looking like a Turkish-Rebel-Teenager is not
exactly the norm. Escaping the ‘look’ of/from Fans so
dedicated that they travel the whole wold to SEE him, might be border
line too.
A splendid
“Man in a long black coat”. I will put it in equality in my
preferred live songs at the moment with “Blind Willy Mc Tell”. My
favorite being “Beyond here lies nothing”, not so much on the set
list anymore.
I will definitively make a painting of “Man
in a long black coat”. All the pictures are in my head.
”The
levee’s gonna break”. I love it too.
”Highway 61”. I’m
tired of. There is no ‘highway 61’ in Europe, Bobby, the public
doesn’t respond so well as in the U.S.A.
”Thunder
on the mountain” is the one that’s supposed to awaken the public.
But tonight it’s not doing the trick. No moving in the front, no
roaring, no dancing.
The sound might even be chaotic at times. The
keyboard higher than any other instruments. Bobby, stop turning up
that little button on the left side of your battered keyboard. We can
hear it alright.
I’m glad he listened to me and he’s not
anymore pulling up his pants on stage. He’s now using his hands to
hold the mike to his mouth. A more appropriate gesture.
I
reconciled with his stage outfit. Hidding his bullet-proof jacket or
just his excess of weight?
I still
prefer the Dandy in leather. So sexy!
“Like a
rolling stone “. You know what I think of that song. But it makes
the public stand up.
It’s too late for any Magic. Even his
little bow at the end makes me smile.
He’s throwing himself in
pasture to the lions? “Eat me raw, I’m happy “? “I’m yours
“?
For one hour
and a half show and 70€! Thanks Bobby.
My negativity is
affecting my gravity. I’m down.
Back to my
Hostel I check some news on the Web. Only 90 shows in 2011. Only 14
songs for each show now. Bob Dylan is getting old and tired?
Or watch
out for the rebound. What kind of rabbit he gonna pull out
of his ‘leopard-skin pill-box hat’?
XV
Appraisal
I compare the
U.S.A. summer Tour with that first half of the European Fall Tour
2011.
- economically
Globally the
same.
In the U.S.A. traveling was a lot harder. Distances between
the cities being more important. The main problem was to access the
venues and get out of the venues. No effective public transportation.
The cars’ Lobby is efficient: the car is the Queen. In Europe,
thanks to some kind of social system, the public transportation is
working: trains, buses, trolleys, trams, undergrounds … are
accessible for all, even free after the show. Also the venues in
Europe are inside the cities, not miles away in the middle of
nowhere!
Every night after the shows in Europe I had a room
with relative comfort: hostels are accessible in any big cities at a
reasonable price (between 12€ and 25€).
But what increased my
budget in Europe was the tickets’ buying with most of the shows
being sold Out and the scalpers taking advantage of it. No shows were
Sold Out in the U.S.A. (except Nashville). The American public is
tired of Bob Dylan?
-Talking
about the Public.
I believe the European
public is younger than the U.S.A. public. Some youngsters in Europe
are truly Bob Dylan Fans (not just joining their old parents). Even
the ‘old’ public is 10 or 15 years younger than the ‘old’
American public (being Dylan age or older). Still 100% white.
-The
performance.
It seems
indifferent to him where he plays. Bob Dylan is equal to himself. No
“Neighborhood Bully” in Tel Aviv (for example). No contact with
the public. Deliberately avoiding to look at
the public.
I mark the difference with Mark Knopfler and Band.
They seem to enjoy themselves on stage, showing a spirit of
comradely, exchanging looks with the front row. They SMILE.
But … as
crazy as this ‘old mad man’ is, the public was for
Bob
Dylan: the Legend, the Icon, the Prophet, the Poet of
Rock and Roll, … Every night he moved in and out
thousands of people.
What a remarkable exploit for a grumpy,
Turkish-rebel-dressed, untouchable, unreachable, unapproachable,
crazy old man. A dream twister.
As to
compare with 1981. same country Germany.
30 years make
a huge difference. I changed, the world changed, Bob Dylan
changed.
In 1981 not once I took a room in a Hostel. I was mainly
sleeping outside (it was summer), in the train stations, invited to
some Fans’ house whom I could (still) meet at the back stage
door.
In Germany the shows were outdoor with standing in front of
the stage. After proving to the Dylan Staff I was not a nuisance I
had had contacts with Bob’s entourage: Jimmy (the sweet bodyguard)
who let me in for free many times, Stan (Bob’s personal physician
and cousin), Bob Meyers (the stage manager), Howard Alk (who even
invited me in Bob’s studio in Santa Monica. Did I miss my
chance?).
The shows were longer (only Dylan on the ticket), mixed
with old songs and gospel songs.
the Band was good (I loved the
Girls adding a touch of femininity). I believe Bob was then truly
happy on stage and off stage with Klydie King. He was then
approachable and charitable (a tint of Christianity, the Jesus’
spirit?).
Today I have
difficulty sorting the part of ART and the part of Business. Show
business taking the step on Art as a pure human expression.
Dylan didn’t
succeed over the years at keeping his image of a Rebel prophet/poet.
Accepting without shame or afterthoughts to shake the hand of the
Pope (the Catholics don’t have quite clean
hands regarding Jewish persecution), accepting Awards,
Grammies, Honors (‘la Légion d’Honneur’ from Sarkozy [that
‘Little Napoleon’]).
He’s diluting
himself in that “Never ending Tour” taking the pace of a “Never
ending Run”.
The
Prophet has turned into a Ghost with
translucent eyes that look only in his internal
vacuum.
Nonetheless
Thank you Mr
Dylan.
I
Love you Bobby.
Thanks for taking me
’on a trip upon
your magic swirling ship’
PART
EIGHT 2
Europe
Tour Fall 2011. Last part.
I’m
back on the road for the last part. I bought a Global Train pass for
two weeks until the 21st. That could take me until the
three London shows.
I
11/08
INNSBRUCK
It
took me 14 hours to reach Innsbruck with three changes. I arrive at
22h.00 p.m. on the 7th. I take a taxi and check in the
Youth Hostel for two nights. Nice and quite as we are only two in a
dorm of six. Get up at 7.00 a.m. for a breakfast and inquire for a
map and the address of the venue;OlympiaHalle. I walk there in the
morning and find the buses parked in a public parking lot. I
doubt Bob will walk all the way to the back stage door. There must be
another entrance. I take a walk in the old city surrounded by
mountains. The weather is warm and sunny, the atmosphere pleasant. I
spend three hours in the Fine Art Museum, not so great.
I
then start my walk to the venue. Around 3.30 p.m. the two black buses
are leaving to pick up the band and Bob. I figure out that they are
staying at the Hilton in the old city but I don’t want to go there,
what for? I prefer a look at distance around the venue.
At
4.30 p.m. the buses are pulling in another inside parking lot. They
all get out. I don’t see Bob but I find a nice spot to
observe on the other side of the parking away from Fed. who takes her
watch as usual.
At
5.00 p.m. I spot two guys walking in the parking lot; a huge man who
must be one of the venue security guard and a tiny man, dressed all
in black with a ¾ coat with a hood. By his way of walking I
recognize Bob. He takes few steps towards an ice-ring located in the
middle of the parking lot while chatting with the guard. Asking him
some technical details ? Fed. had been joined by a handful of fans,
one screams “Bobby!”. But Bobby doesn’t notice. At this moment
I agree with him to ignore this stupid one. He keeps on chatting and
finally steps in his bus. Barron and Robert take position, end of the
story. That was nice. I’m glad to see that he’s not completely
mute but sad that he doesn’t address his fans anymore. I start my
search for a ticket as people arrive slowly by bus, cars, or just
walking. The young guy from Prague is singing Dylan’s songs. He
made it to Hannover last night. I spot a man with gray hair I’ve
seen in Leipzig. Over there we had had an argument about Bob being
able to see or not the front row. I was sure then than Bob was still
near sighted and that he could not distinguish the faces. But this
man had been sure that Bob recognized him at some show.
Now
I agree that maybe Bob is wearing lenses or he had had an operation
on his eyes and that he can see. I then say that I need a ticket and
if by any chance he’s got any. He says yes, a 107€ price ticket.
I ask how he wants from it and he generously gives it to me since I
agree that Bob could have noticed him in front row. Thanks.
I
wait for C. and S. and T. and K.. They all found a good price ticket,
so we get in shortly before the end of Mark knopfler set. We all move
front as it is the intermission. We chat by the front rail and find
out there is a large gap between the rail and the front seat row. C.
who had seen hundreds of shows think we have a good chance to stay
where we are during the whole show. We pray for more fans to join us
in the front, for the security to be cool and for Bob to be onstage
as soon as possible. Once Bob is playing I believe they would not
want to disturb the show.
And
“ladies and gentlemen…” “Leopard skin …” all in Black.
The
best show ever on that tour for me. All the BobCats are in front and
I truly believe Bob feels it immediately. He looks at us and sing for
the first row. We are all enthusiastic and respectful;none will take
photos.
I
secretly ask for “to Ramona” but he will do “Visions of
Johanna”
No
“Forgetful heart” or “Man in the long black coat” or “Blind
Willy Mc Tell” but he’s smiling and looking at
the public, so I’m happy.
At
the ending salute the musicians are truly surprised at the good
feeling from the front row. We salute all of them with hands
movements. Bob looks at something on his right and frowns and murmurs
something to Tony who answers him. I inquire about a sign a Fan was
holding. It says “smokin’ Joe” (Joe Frazier) who had been
the last boxer fighting Muhammed Ali/Casus Clay and he had died this
same evening.
So
Bob can see but not perfectly!
What
a great show! It worth all the traveling and pain of that Tour. What
a wonderful feeling!
Thanks
Bobby for having been with your public that specific night in
Innsbruck.
A
good night sleep, a good breakfast and on the road to Italy where I
expect a lot.
But
… !
The
four shows in Italy are ‘standing’, a chance to be in the front,
but I’ll have to queue for hours.
II
11/09
PADOVA
I
arrive late in Padova (3.00 p.m.). I check in rapidly in the Youth
Hostel and rush to the venue. There is already a bunch of fans
waiting at the doors in complete chaos. I don’t have a ticket yet
but I spot Rita, Dooddy and Simeon. I say hello.
I
stay on this ‘line’ few hours(I make sure people have seen me)
then move to look for a ticket. I buy one for 40€ from an old man
and try to join the line again. By then the security has decided to
organize the line and had move every one away to add some railings.
The first ones are not the first ones anymore.
The
show tonight will start at 9.00 p.m. like all the four shows in
Italy. Far too late! There will be no more buses to bring me back to
my Hostel. I’ll see. Now the priority is to keep in front of the
line. We’ll wait until 7.30 p.m. Hours and hours of wasting time.
They
open the doors, we all run.
By
some kind of miracle I’m on the left side of the stage, front row
next to Rita.
The
public is not as ‘civilized’ as in Germany or the U.S.A. People
push and push and the vital space is reducing. I find a way
nonetheless to move my feet and legs on the good songs from Knopfler.
Some in-respectful fools are screaming ‘Bob’, Bobby!’ on the
nice violin solo. Mark looks sad!
Dylan
is on at 10.30 p.m. I recognize BobCats in the front ;
Ryan, Demetrios (the American fan I met in Nashville) Mat
(another American Fan) the two girls from Germany, Rita, Dooddy. I
know C.and S. are in the crowd somewhere; the German ‘kid’ who
came to Lille and Germany and more, T. and K. will make it in later.
For
some reason I don’t understand the cameras are allowed inside, no
control. It’s a folly to see all those lights flashing at Dylan’s
face. Even in the front some have sophisticated cameras with zoom.
Security doesn’t care! I don’t see Barron or ‘Mr X.’ with
their flashlights. Bob suddenly agrees for photos to be taken? Or he
can’t help it? So what this fuss in all the other countries?
The
show is good. Bob smiles, really smiles with Donny.
He sticks his tongue out. I don’t know what to make of it. It looks
senile.
The
public is warm but ‘erratic’. Some one screams ’Bob, Bob!’
non stop. That’s a bit too much!
Because
I’m tired from the waiting on the line and because we have few
space to move, I don’t feel the Magic. Bob is not looking at the
first row or at the public. It’s late, he might be tired.
No
“Blowing in the wind”. “Desolation row” was well done. I fall
asleep in my dorm with that song in my head. Demetrios had
given me a ride after the show.
We’ll
all be in Florence in two days from now.
III
11/11
FLORENCE
It
takes me a while to get to Florence for the information they gave me
at the train station were wrong. I check in the Youth Hostel by the
train station and go for a walk in the city. Magnificent cathedrals
and monuments. Tomorrow the Hostel organizes a free sight seeing tour
from 10 to 12 a.m. Perfect. I offer myself the treat of an Italian
ice cream and go to bed early.
I
get up early for I want to see more of the city before the sight
seeing Tour. I heard about a Box Office selling concert ticket so I
run there, but there is no more standing ticket. I don’t want a
seat, I want a front row. After the interesting tour I enter the Fine
Art Museum to absorb myself with the paintings of Michael Angelo,
Leonardo Da Vinci, Tiepolo, Tintoret … and then it’s time to move
to the venue for I’ll have to find a ticket and queue.
I
have no luck with my search so I go to the Box Office. It takes
forever for the Italians to open. Since they are no more standing I
buy myself a seat with the hope of swapping it or anyway to get in. I
have no luck swapping it. On the line Demetrios is holding
some space for his girlfriend and myself. I meet with Rita, Dooddy
and Simeone who bought V.I.P. packages. They’ll enter 10 minutes
before the throng on the line for 120€ a ticket.
Now
they open the doors and I get in with my seat ticket. I sneak around
to get down the floor and join Rita and Dooddy right on the rail in
the front. Fed. arrives a bit later, she was holding her ‘please, I
need a free ticket’ few minutes earlier. She has her way!
We
wait one hour and a half before Mark Knopfler who seams more and more
tired. His set is well organized now, always the same set list. The
public is well responding to the Dire Straits songs. A boy of 10/12
years old is a fan, so we let him in the front. He’ll leave after
Mark’s set. They change the equipment quickly now. Since the show
starts at 9.00 p.m. Bob will be on at 10h30 p.m. much too late!
“Ladies
and gentlemen…”
“Leopard
skin …”
Then
the first lines of “Girl of the north country” , so fast I can’t
sing along. What’s the rush?
The
first row is enthusiastic even though few BobCats made it to the
front. Ryan is behind me and Demetrios , his girl friend
and Mat, a young American guy following part of the Tour. Ryan will
end the Tour in Florence. I don’t see the two German girls nor the
two big men with white hair. T. and K. will get in later for free.
They don’t understand why I want to be in front, but , as I said,
each BobCat has is reason and his own way. Rita wants to be in front
(she’s going only to the standing shows) and Fed. and Mat. Mat will
sell me his Rome’s ticket for he was upset not to have been first
row tonight. He had been first in the line waiting but with the
V.I.P. packages the first row was taken by rich people. After the
show will chat. I ask him if he had met Bob. He says yes, that he had
been backstage for few minutes in 2004. He had reach Bob through
Bob’s manager. I tell him he’s lucky for it’s pretty rare to
reach Bob in those days.
The
show is good. Bob sweats a lot since the beginning and puts his hands
on his chest. I’m wondering if he can breathe alright.
Tonight
a great “The levee’s gonna break” and a always beautiful
“Forgetful heart”.
His
look is rapidly scanning the first row but if he recognizes someone
he doesn’t show any notice. Barron is walking the gap, making sure
no Fan takes any photo. Between Rita, Fed. and myself we make fuss in
the front, but in vain. No personal look! Even at the salute. He
looks tired and puffy again. But I enjoyed myself, singing along and
ignoring the 10 000 fans behind me.
Mats
tells me that when he’s in the front row he’s sure Bob and the
band recognize him. I tell him that I have the strong feeling no one
is actually looking at the public.
Mat,
the gray-hair-man, Fed., Rita and few more are dreaming
being recognized. I was dreaming too. But not anymore.
They
play for an anonymous crowd.
So
many BobCats are so tired of so much pain for so few results (14
songs tonight) that they won’t make it any further.
Italy
is a nice country but the opposite of Germany; chaotic and
disorganized. Count on the trains to be late!
All
the shows are standing, a chance to be front but with so much wasting
of time and energy.
I’m
glad I’ve been able to share with some followers. They all follow
since the 90’s when Bob’s security was tough. They can’t
understand my deception at not being able to see Bob or say hello or
good night. The frustration is creeping on me.
Claude
agreed to join me for the show in Sarrago [Milan]. We can share at
another level. Our memories from the past.
I’m
in the train to Rome. I was hoping to meet with C. and S.. Last night
after the show the three of us had a run to the downtown area towards
our hotels. My Hostel has a curfew time at 2.00 a.m. Without anymore
bus or train at this hour of the night we had to walk for more than
an hour. Arriving at my Hostel 5 minutes after 2.00 a.m. I had
been scolded out by the manager. My night had been tormented.
I
remember now a small thing from the show:during the show Bob forgot
the lyrics of one song and had mumbled something. The sign he was not
‘with’ us. Old and tired? He was wearing that flashy green shirt
I don’t like!
IV
11/12
ROME
I
arrived in Roma Termini in early afternoon. After checking two
Hostels I found out they’re full. So I decided to leave my luggage
at the train station and took a chance to visit Roma. I lost myself
in the narrow streets packed with tourists around the Coliseum, found
the fountain of Trevi and moved back to the train station to catch
the 714 bus to the Pallalottomatica.
Roma
is a huge city, all spread out. I’m lucky Mat sold me his ticket
for I meet on the line two BobCats and I move right in the front of
the waiting line. I say hello to Rita and Dooddy who have V.I.P.
packages. Rita says she might not be able to save me some space for
she has 2 others friends coming tonight, plus Fed..
They’re
late opening the doors. It’s cold outside. They open just before
8.00 p.m. and we run, run, run. I meet with Rita at the rail. We chat
for a while. I see a Japanese woman who had been to Padova show.
Except Rita and myself no BobCats that I recognize. I haven’t seen
C. and S. on the train from Florence, I don’t know if they made it.
Mark
Knopfler is on and the public is responding well. Obviously the most
Knopfler public of the Tour. They take photos like crazy. The guy
next to me is a photo freak. Will he do that for Bob?
After
a non surprising Knopfler show they roll the instruments. We notice
that Bob’s keyboard is slightly turn aside towards the left side of
the first row. Now he could see his public standing on his keyboard.
Thank you Bobby!
“Ladies
and gentlemen…”
With
Rita we bet on the color of his hat; black or white? I say black for
he had been wearing black in Italy. And yes it’s black but … a
cow-boy hat! You look good Bobby in that black-cow-boy hat!
“But
you know what we really love you for
It’s your brand new
leopard-skin pill-box hat”
I’m
right in his line of vision. If he can see he has to see me! Maybe?
And what?
He
looks fit, not sweating so much.
“The
lonesome death of Hattie Carole”, “Ballad
Of Hollis Brown” clearly worded.
I don’t even notice the presence of Mark Knopfler
anymore. I don’t know on how many songs he will play.
“Desolation
row” is a little bit erratic, the end too much ‘staccato’.
And yes! He will do “Forgetful heart”, always so
beautiful and so sad.
“The
door has closed forevermore”
What
does it mean? The door of his heart? No more Love, no more pain?
If
the door is closed, Bobby, please open a window.
The
public is flashing like crazy[cameras]. Barron and ‘Mr X.’ run in
front to stop that craziness before Bob gets mad and stops singing.
On my right the silly Italian guy has a big Canon with zoom. He’s
trying hard to get a close up right in the face of Bob. I put my hand
in front of his lens. He’s mad and I scream “Don’t do it, Bob
doesn’t like it”. He’ll put his camera away for a while. I
saved you Bobby! But behind me they flash.
Bobby
is right in front of me for his standing songs but he doesn’t look
or maybe with his a peripheral glance. He doesn’t
avoid looking though, he’s with us tonight. His movements are more
controlled, less des-articulated. Even “The ballad of a thin man”
is more together. He’s responding to his own echo.
“Thunder
on the mountain” is the pick, the public is wild.
Rita,
her friend and myself are responding to Stu or Charley’s guitar
solos. They’re moving in my back too. The Italian public doesn’t
respect the vital space, they knock on each other, that’s adding to
the ambiance.
“The
ballad of a thin man” is coming too soon, I know it’s almost the
end with the predictable “All along the watch tower” and “Like
a rolling stone”. Though I wish he could change this one I join the
public for a sing along.
He
murmurs something at the ear of Tony. I scream “Blowing in the
wind” just to have the feeling he will do it for me. He will do it.
Thank you Bobby!
His
salute is longer than usual but doesn’t look at the front row.
The
lights are on, the Magic is gone, I must go on.
I
have no room tonight. The venue is miles away from the train station.
Five BobCats from Norway, Germany or England take me under their
protection. After a beer we all move to the center in the last
underground train. It’s one o’clock. The train station is closed.
I can’t believe it! It was so busy during the day. It’s cold so I
wander around trying to find a cheap Hotel. I find one for 39€/night.
I check in for 5 hours of rest. It’s funky but warm and secure.
If
I dreamed of Bob I don’t remember. But looking at him so close
during the show I have the feeling he’s familiar, like a brother.
It takes me some effort to realize I was actually staring at Bob
Dylan.
I
don’t go by the black buses anymore, I prefer to be first row. Last
night however the two black buses were stuck in the traffic so I had
the chance to say again “bye, bye Bobby, good night!” and praying
the driver was good. He is, zigzagging between the cars.
I
haven’t seen C. and S.. That was supposed to be their last show
before London.
[They’ll
tell me later that they couldn’t get in]
At
the train station early morning on the 13th I meet
with K. who tells me that T. and himself could not get in the
previous night. The security was tough. Even Didn’t make it!
I’m
surprised about the Italians that I find rather tough, as I was
expecting more gentleness. Is it the effect of globalization and the
development of selfishness?
I
want to get to Milan early, find a cheap Hostel for the first night
and sight seeing.
It’s
a day off, will I step on the young-dressed-hooded-Turk taking a walk
with the last of the Samurai? By a simple twist of fate?
I
have to check my bank account for my
“My
money comes and goes
My money comes and goes
My money comes and
goes
And rolls and flows and rolls and flows
Through the holes
in the pockets in my clothes”
I
spent already too much. Will I make it to Switzerland, an expensive
country?
I’m
pretty sure not to make it to London, it will be impossible to get
tickets.
We’ll
see, God’s will!
My
good friend and Dylan Fan Claude Boni sent me a mail informing she
won’t be able to go to Milan. So I’m on my own with my thoughts
and my Bob Dylan’s dreams.
I
then check in for two nights at the Youth Hostel in Milan next to the
beautiful white marble Cathedral: Duomo. I go there in the afternoon
but spot no one having a connection with Dylan. I take a chance to
cook myself some dinner and go to bed early by 8.00 p.m. I will sleep
12 hours non stop in a quiet room.
On
the 14th. A simple breakfast and a walk again to the
Duomo. In the early afternoon I spot Mark Knopfler’s drummer and
bagpipe musician crossing the piazza, but no Samouraï!
I
eat a lunch of pastas before taking the underground to the venue. In
the train I meet with the Japanese girl[who also wants to be front
row]. At the gates there is a line. I’ve got no ticket but find
immediately a scalper. 100€ for a standing, normal price 48€. I
say 80€. I want to be in front, all the BobCats want to be front.
Some I recognize from Florence and Rome;
the
tall man from Berlin, the white-hair-man from Norway, Rita, Dooddy,
Simeon, their english friend (Romy) a woman from Norway (Eva)who was
in Padova and Florence, a french woman (Cath), Mat who’s looking
for a ticket and waiting for Demetrios and his girl friend.
Two
french young men are standing next to me (Olivier and Claude). We
chat for four hours. It’s foggy and cold but I’ve got on me three
layers of sweatshirts and two pairs of socks, scarf, gloves. I gonna
be dying of heat inside.
7.30
p.m. they open the gates and I’m so stiff with cold that I can
hardly run. Mat is in front. I stick right behind him. At the right
spot on the left for I believe Bob will have his keyboard aside
again.
On
my left and behind some really young people (16/17) are obviously
Mark Knopfler’s Fans. Mark will have his night of glory, tonight.
He will try a new song. Nice!
I
hope secretly that some of those fans will leave after Mark’s set
and let me move on the rail. They do after Mark had left the stage.
I’m
right in Bob’s vision when he’s on his keyboard. He’s wearing a
long black jacket. But tonight he’s again in his own world,
ghostly.
At
some point he’s looking for his harmonica and Tony reacts fast to
hand it to him, even Charley makes a move.
The
set is good, nothing special. None of my favorite songs. A nice
“Simple twist of fate”.
Mat
left earlier to try and catch the last train at 12.20 going downtown.
I preferred to enjoy the show until the end and now I’m wondering
if I gonna be stuck here in the cold fog, miles away from my warm and
cosy bed.
I
follow the throng to the Metro/tube and sensibly they add a train for
the latecomers.
I
step out at the Duomo and walk half an hour like a zombi. I reach my
bunk at 2.00 a.m. and crash on it.
V
11/15
GENEVA Switzerland.
My
train will be arriving at 4.00 p.m.. I don’t know if I’ll be able
to be in the front. But truly I start to be tired of that ‘game’.
I’m exhausted. I need some motivation; the Innsbruck show again?
Again
talking in the line with the BobCats I find out we are all different;
the
women want to be front row (center if possible), each one wants to be
‘special’ and be recognized by Bob (The Lover, the Father, the
Brother … the Icon)
Rita
will do only the ‘standing’ shows and make sure she’s in the
front on the rail.
the
men are more reserved and don’t mind to be two rows back (except
the young ones like Mat or the tall kid from Germany or the blond
English kid). C. and S. prefer to save money on the ticket and
eventually sneak in front. T. and K. prefer to save money on the
ticket and anyway to leave before the end because they have business
to do.
Those
last four are doing the whole Tour (expect few shows) and all the
European tours since the late 80’s.
Saving
money is a necessity.
The
two french men (Olivier and Claude) told me that since 2005 Bob’s
voice is lacking of quality. When in the past they expected a good
show among some average shows now they are reduced to expect just a
good song, some in a while.
I believe that as much as Bob’s performance is
concerned it has nothing to do with the public but just depends on
his mood. I have the sentiment he's living more and more in his own
world, his own reality of time and space, waking up at times to
realize with horror that people are staring at him, hoping to be
able to detach his soul from his body. At times he will
succeed, other times not.
As
much as each Fan’s reception of the show will depend on this person
feelings; the fatigue of the day, the good spot in the venue (the
good view and good sound), the expectation from the show, the
knowledge of the past performances, the expectation of this song or
that song. For most of the fans Lille was a good show, for me
(because of all the troubles getting in and my bad spot) it was the
worst.
The relationship between Bob Dylan's audience
and Bob Dylan was and will always be exceptionally complex, as
complex as the Man and Artist: Bob Dylan.
At
the train station waiting for my train to Geneva I’m reading a book
by Paulo Coelho “the winner stands alone”. Much appropriate for
Bob Dylan.
I
arrive late in Geneva, 4.30 p.m. with few chance to be in front.
I
check rapidly in the Youth Hostel by the train station and rush to
the SEG Geneva Arena.
I
meet there T., K., Mat, Fed.. Not over friendly! Mat sells me a
ticket for face value; 100 FCH. Demetrios and his girl
friend are not coming, they’re sick so they handed their tickets to
Mat.
Fortunately
on the front of the line I meet the tall Berlin Fan I helped put
front yesterday. I sneak in next to him.
The
line is not too long, not like in Italy. People are relatively old,
older than the Italian public.
The
weather is warmer than in Milan but the atmosphere much more cold and
disciplined. It’s already 6.00 p.m. and they’ll open the doors at
6.30 p.m. for a show at 8.00 p.m.
We
run, run, run and I find myself next to Fed. and an Italian youngster
who did the Italian leg. I see Olivier and Claude and that’s it. No
BobCats! Rita, Duddy, Simeon didn’t make it? [they had had business
problems] Next to me some french fans came from Paris or other part
of France. They have been to Paris, Lille, Antwerpe … They agree
that Bercy was horrible; sound and atmosphere (one tells me that
Dylan had been booed!).
So
please, Bobby, don’t do anymore Bercy and the O2 World in Berlin.
If
he's got any control on where he's playing?!
We
chat about … Bob Dylan. All kind of rumors and gossips, hard to
sort the rights from the wrongs.
“Oh
a false clock tries to tick out my time
To disgrace, distract, and
bother me
And the dirt of gossip blows into my face
And the
dust of rumors covers me
But if the arrow is straight
And the
point is slick
It can pierce through dust no matter how thick
So
I’ll make my stand
And remain as I am
And bid farewell and
not give a damn”
And
Mark Knopfler is on, really close to the front row. Because
youngsters are enthusiastic I try to enjoy myself but I almost fall
asleep on the trio bluesy song. Boring. His voice is soporific.
We
bet on the color of Bob’s hat. Black cow-boy hat, red stripped
suit.
“Leopard
skin …” will start pretty good but the fire will extinguished.
The public is good but not over doing it. Few fans on the front dance
on “Summer days” and “Thunder on the mountain”.
I
look intensely at his face. His expression is neutral. I even have
the strange sensation (just my bad feelings) that he’s avoiding
looking in my direction. His gaze is more on the right side of the
first row. His eyes are not scanning like in Innsbruck. The sensation
he’s playing only for himself (or God?).
“Highway
61” is too loud, deafening. Some leave the venue. The youngsters
are gone. There is an empty space all around me. My strange feeling
is that;
“Oh
my God am I here all alone?”.
Somehow
I had some eye contact respectively with Mark Knopfler, Tony and
Charley (or is it my imagination?), but the sensation is bad! Hostile
looks! Intuition or paranoia? Hard to tell. But those feelings are
scaring me. Am I loosing my sanity! If I ever had any.
Even
Bob’s eyes appear dark, the Devil’s eyes! And I call him”the
crazy old man”.
None
of my favorite songs; “Forgetful heart”, “Man in the long black
coat”, “Blind Willy Mc Tell”. He deliberately forgot my songs?
Looking
at him sweating and blowing in his harp I try to picture him in his
20’s when he was the Rebel Prophet, the Philosopher, the hidden
consciousness of a whole generation.
But
I see in this performer just an old and tired man with a puffy face
and a hoarse voice.
Tonight
he didn’t put his Bob Dylan mask on. The Magic doesn’t work.
Tonight he’s Zimmy, the gloomy clown.
Zurich
will be only seats, no standing. I’ll check around the back-stage
door, play ‘Cat and Mouse’ with Barron, be myself a clown in that
big Circus.
The
book I’m reading might have some influence on my mood
”The
winner stands alone”, alone in his black-gold-prison-cell!
“People
are never satisfied. If they have a little they want more. If they
have a lot, they want still more. Once they have more, they wish they
could be happy with little, but are incapable of making the slightest
effort in that direction.”
Paulo
Coelho.
Olivier
told me that Dylan had just signed a contract for the release of
“Chronicles II”. Let see what the MAN himself has to say.
VI
11/116
ZURICH
I
arrive in the early afternoon but the Backpackers is closed. I take a
chance to read my book then check in and take a walk along the quai.
I’m in the best part of the city, nice and clean.
I
take the tram 11 to the Stadion. I arrive just in time to see the
Musicians’ bus pulls in a closed parking lot, no visibility. No
play ‘cat and mouse’ with Barron. I miss that Samurai! If Bob’s
security is his only job, that’s pretty cool. Except Fed. and
myself no one never venture by the black-gold-prison-cell. I’m
wondering if his functions are not also to help an old man who’s
loosing his capacities! An old-man-sitter Barron?
I
meet with a man in a wheel chair and we get in the bar of the Holiday
Inn to keep warm. He’s a Bruce Springsteen fan, had seen him 12
times. He’s also a Dire Straits fan. He doesn’t know much of
Dylan but he’s nice enough to pretend to be interested in my Dylan
stories.
Later
on the young Dylan singer from Prague will show up, but doesn’t
want to go to the show. He thinks Dylan’s voice is pretty bad. He’s
just making money on Dylan’s back by singing his songs before and
after the show! I’m nice enough not to tell him that his voice is
not the best either. At least Bob Dylan WROTE his songs.
K.
and T. will join the small group. Of course Fed. is around, checking
on the bus!
No
more. The BobCats dropped out! They’re all tired and deceived. The
shows repeat themselves. We’re always hoping for a surprise but it
doesn’t worth the pain and the money!
K.
is homesick, So am I.
I
buy a ticket early for 40€ and get in for it’s getting cold.
My
seat is all the way up in a big ‘bowl’. Mark Knopfler is good and
clear but small. I don’t want to see Bob from so far away. I check
the floor. It’s packed. The crowd is more quiet than the Italian
one. During the intermission I sneak in the ‘parquet’. Not too
close but good enough.
“Ladies
and gentlemen …”
Bob
is wearing is white hat and that’s all I can see.
The
sound seems terribly loud. “Leopard skin…” is not finished that
some old chaps are leaving. And so during the whole show. Bob is
growling more than singing.
“Thunder
on the mountain” will be the pick.
From
where I am I observe a strange phenomena: as soon as people leave the
front rows people from the back are moving front. Finally even if
half the parquet is empty all the Fans are packed in the front, up
and dancing. Of course the Band will see only the enthusiastic crowd.
Tonight
he will do “Jolene “ and “Man in the long black coat”. These
two songs will do my night and worth my 40€. My “Shot of Love “in
a gloomy day.
I
leave the venue at the beginning of “Like a rolling stone”. I
want to wish good night to Bob and a safe trip to London. I’m sure
he’ll fly tonight.
The
black buses are not running. He’ll take a car?
Fed.
is also checking out.
I
hear “Blowing in the wind”.
Few
minutes later ‘Mr X.’ rushes out, jumps in a car.
A
van with smoked-glass windows pulls by the back stage door.
The
van rolls out, I’m sure with Bob inside. All by himself, no
musicians. Strait to the airport?
I’m
sure he’ll take a private plane. I don’t see how he could stand
sitting next to ordinary people who could recognize him and stare at
him. Or am I wrong?
“Bye,
bye Bobby Good night. Have a safe trip!”
The
young man from Prague asks me the eternal question; why is he touring
so much?
I
don’t know
-money?
But he agrees he can live on his royalties
-the
pressure of the show Business? Bob Dylan is an industry. Thousands
persons depend on his shows and selling tickets and selling posters,
T-Shirts, albums …
-the
need of being revered by the public? ( an anonymous public ).
-nothing
else to do? Nothing better to do?
“He’s
staring into space, as if hoping to make it clear he doesn’t want
to be disturbed”.
Paulo
Coelho
VII
I paid for myself to go, it was still difficult. When one wants to be a Dylan fan, you should swallow your pride. As in "Like a Rolling Stone", you are invisible and have no secrets to hide ... "You're invisible now, you got no secrets to conceal"
You want to know how it feels? "How Does It Feel?" you truly feel little!
The first time I saw him this year was with my friend Laurette who travels by train, with her backpack and has done this dozens of times. I wanted to share the experience with her because I admire her. I admire the courage she has to get free tickets to concerts and to bargain until she finds a price she can afford.
In front of the Bercy Hall in Paris on October 18, by 4:30 p.m. the scalpers were there. It is always the same. They had grabbed all the tickets for resale at double the regular price.
As one would expect the prices to fall, we went and placed ourselves by the fence where Bob's bus would be parking, watched closely by two Bercy security guys and later Bob's men. To make ourselves a little more invisible we started a conversation with them which managed to last six hours.
There was no Bob for a long time, then, on the stroke of 21H he finally came down smoking his cigarette, tucked away in the small gap between two buses, with one of the musicians and another person.
We didn't see anything of him except his two skinny ankles in black boots from below and then we realized. We saw that he hesitated, walking in circles, and then he went back.
There was still half an hour until it was time for him to go on stage. Knopfler's equipment was being cleared and replaced by Bob's.
This was the hardest time because it was dark and cold for a while. At 9:50pm something finally happened. The second bodyguard for Bob, not Tabura Barron, the other large "Mr X.".
He approached us in no hurry, with a clenched jaw and steady gaze, and asked us our names. He spoke to Laurette and me in a kind of 'cop interrogation' style while Bob - all dressed and ready to go on stage - leaned out from behind the bus to see us from afar.
Then Mr X. returned to tell him our names, and Bob agreed to walk the twenty yards that separated him from the stage door, looking in our eyes ... without fear.
Sometimes there are too many fans at the gate; it is twenty feet from the car!
The satisfaction of a fan ... we were the last two people to have seen Bob before he took the stage. We still managed to be the last two people outside his circle to be seen by him before he goes to play.
He crossed to the stage door when he heard the hoarse voice of Laurette screaming and my broken voice shout, "We love you Bob."
The satisfaction of a fan ... If Bob does not care about us, US, it concerns us. We were delighted to have diverted him from his course for a moment ... "When you ain't got nothing, you got nothing to loose ".
When she arrives to meet with Bob it happens in places as chic as she is herself - a distinguished woman, large and imposing, with piercing blue eyes and persuasive manner.
As she had predicted we would see him, I followed along.
After a short walk around the Cathedral in the middle of a demonstration by students in lab coats, we went to take Art Nouveau seats in the lobby of the Hilton, in the warmth under the yellow lights, to begin our wait for Bob.
There was already another woman at table, discrete, in a strategic position, who confirmed that Bob was there and he was going to leave at 23H.
Anneke was like a lioness hunting, scenting prey, and she moved back and forth outside.
Going for a cigarette, she came upon some musicians and road managers, there was no doubt something would happen - she only wanted to see Bob.
Finally to 10:30 she wanted to go out again and this time I followed her.
It all happened very quickly, as I watched the demonstration of the students take a more hysterical turn, she saw Bob go.
"Claude come quickly, it's Bob."
Bob ..?
I saw only two rappers who walked side by side in no hurry..
"Anneke it's not Bob, it's a young Turk.. You're wrong." This small figure in white jogging pants and gray sweatshirt with hood with a visor cap? Is that Bob?
I did not believe it; to me it was a Turk.. Anneke started running and then Bob and Barron Tabur went to the second door to the left of the place. Anneke ran to the front door and disappeared into the Hilton in seconds.
Intrigued, I still accelerated my pace. Arriving in the room I saw that she spoke with the little Turk who was fixed, fascinated before her ... and I thought I recognized a bodyguard.
I approached the scene slowly, as if I was trying to do a number as a tamer in the circus.. Still doubtful.
Coming to within one meter of Bob I recognized his profile ... Anneke was still animatedly talking to him but I was so enthralled that I forget what she was saying.
I went within 50 inches of him and I faced him, ignoring the presence of the Barron and then came out of my ridiculous mouth ... two words. I spoke to him in French, with round eyes, I said, "Hello Bob "as if I was speaking to someone familiar.
He looked at me blankly, eyes filled with Modigliani blue, and he did not answer. Barron took the opportunity to say something like, "We gotta go now" at least I think so, because I felt like I was in a dream.
I saw Bob in black and white, I was amazed at his complexion so clear, his faded eyes, they were almost transparent, inconsistent, like an apparition, a ghost.
I had already met Bob several times before and in much better conditions. But the fact of being a fan, being forced to behave like a complete unknown "a complete unknown, Like a Rolling Stone", had plunged me into a trance.
Barron and Bob walked away with hurried steps through the corridors of the Hilton and I kept saying, "It's not possible, it was really Bob and I did not believe it!"
Outside in the dark and without my glasses I could not distinguish the features of Bob that I recognize from many of the photos. That is to say, Bob on stage, the star made up with rosy cheeks, the heavy costumes black and heavy ...
This little chap who walked before me with a run that made him bow-legged, I took for a Turk because Bob would be in his uniform of 'Lord-of-all-the World'.
Anneke told me she shook hands and he held out his cheek ... Anneke has powers, she has a sixth sense, if you really want to see Bob, follow Anneke closely...
”
Now I start to feel bad; jealousy I guess. He just refused to see me by playing this game of “cat and mouse”.
We talk and talk with Claude (who had decided to stay with me rather than following Anneke). We’re balancing between Love and Hatred; two extremes of a same feeling?
We catch a tram to the concert hall and since Claude doesn’t want to spoil her pleasure with Mark Knopfler set, we go to a bar. We have a drink (Tea for me, never any alcohol on the Road). And we talk a bit more about … Bobby.
It’s easy talk with Claude for she’s no ‘nuts’ - she DID meet Bob - she’s smart, human, sensible, sensitive and with that integrity I like so much in people, including Bob Dylan.
Even if we don’t have the same approach we’re finally looking for the same result: a little bit of attention and consideration from someone we admire so much as an Artist as well as a Man. Someone who inspires us both in our drawings and paintings.
But he gave a kiss to Anneke.
Claude says she’s a wealthy Jew. I found her snobbish and arrogant, the kind that of course will be Bob Dylan social class, a courtesan. All to please him.
Who are we? Two poor little girls running after the Charming Prince in a far far away country!
So ridiculous for we’re no girls anymore. So what?
Of course that kind of mood will influence my reaction to the show.
Bob is equal to himself, me, I don’t feel the Magic. I feel like crying specifically that he will do “Forgetful heart” tonight.
Anneke told me He’s doing all that Touring for money
-“to provide for his 4 wives and 9 children”- !!??
That kiss turned her head?!
I’ve seen that auburn-haired woman again in the bus. His girl friend, his hidden wife?
Since weeks and even months I have not dreamed any Dylan dream, nothing coming back spontaneously to my mind in the morning. I believe in my dreams, many come true as a premonition. But my subconsciousness is apparently not focused on Dylan. No strong and deep feelings moving me deep inside. I even “fear” meeting him. Like if I meet him that will be the end of all. Waking up from a 37 years old dream could be deathly painful.
Claude told me that she had that feeling the night she spent with Bob. In the morning she run away. Freaking out!
I will be arriving at 4.00 p.m. so I’m not sure if I’ll be able to get to the front row tonight. Again it is standing like last night in ...
And the waiting starts … Too long. I’m sick of it.
Gates open at 6.15 p.m. and we all run in the front. But some 20 “shmucks” are already camping in the front : V.I.P. package.
Fed. is on the left side, hanging on the rail (as if it’s gonna fly away in a tornado!).
Two Italian BobCats, Rita and her cousin, are nice enough to let me move front.
One more hour to wait for Mark Knopfler and one hour and a half more for Bob. It’s a folly that wasting of time!
Rita doesn’t even bother to stand up for Mark Knopfler and his band: she’s sited down the floor, her back to the rail. So is Fed. most of the time. It doesn’t seem to disturb Mark Knopfler a bit.
I stand up for I don’t dislike the set.
Then in a deafening roar and a movement of the wave crushing the front row to the rails He’s on his keyboard. “Leopard skin pill box hat”.
Equal to himself: banging on that battered keyboard and sweating in his heavy suit.
Tonight he’ll do “Mississippi” immediately recognized by some Fans next to me, BobCats for sure, some have been in the U.K.
Fed. is acting enthusiastic at first, then I see her being static with a nostalgic attitude
”you look so fine at first
But left looking just like a ghost.”
800 shows or more have some effect on her!
Bobby being so close and still without reach.
I don’t believe her stories though there might be some truth at times. After so many hopes and frustrations we mix up reality and dream: I know the effect.
”You’re a man of the mountains, you can walk on the clouds
Manipulator of crowds, you’re a dream twister”
I don’t believe I could do what I do now for the next 13 years.
But my experiences are different. Bob in the “past” was approachable and there was some real hope to meet with him. Now I don’t believe that will happen and I’m tired to think and try.
Talking with BobCats on the line I found that each person has his own story, own knowledge, own image of Bob Dylan ; “he’s like this or like that. He wants this or he wants that. He will hate you if you go by the bus … bla bla bla”.
What I was apparently the only one and first one doing in 1981 (according to Howard Alk) - that is following a whole Tour without asking anything to the Staff member – is done now by a bunch of Fans from the 90’s, since the beginning of the “never ending Tour” (give us a better word for it Bob). It’s not the Dead Head “family” though. The BobCats being individualist. We can feel jealousy and fear.
I recovered now from that kiss he gave to Anneke. The wound is closed. There is a scar.
I started to read the Memoirs of Elie Wiesel and time passed faster and spirit rised up again.
Wiesel is a true Humanitarian, a Tzadikk.
I reach Esch at 5.30 p.m. with no hope to be able to stand at the front row. So I decide to take my time and just buy a seat ticket for 20€ or so. Hang around the buses.
But what do we know about God’s plan?
I reach the Rockhal after checking in a really expensive Hotel (no other choice in Esch).
Rita and her cousin are queuing in first spot on the line. I say hello. I start my search for a ticket. Buy a standing for 75€ (expensive day since I paid 82€ for my room). I join Rita and her cousin and I’m right in the front of the line. My luck of the day!
We run, run, run and we all are at the exact same position as yesterday. The same old Cats on my left and right.
A little girl of 10 or 12 came to see Mark Knopfler so I move slightly back to allow her to appreciate the Knopfler Band. A young fellow is a Dire Straits Fan, taking photos like crazy. He’s lucky it’s not Bob on stage and Barron is not in the pit yet!
He will leave right after Knopfler set. It’s pretty rare. The crowd is all standing for there is no seat!!?? All standing for Dylan.
”Ladies and gentlemen…”
And guess what? Mark Knopfler is on stage, jamming three songs with Bob. The little girl is happy.
Bob is happy too, that is, as much as he allows himself to show.
I’m not mad at him anymore. For now He’s wearing his Bob Dylan mask.
With Rita and Fed. we dance and sing and scream and secretly pray and encourage him; Bobby our sweet Love.
It hurts me when he’s blowing in his harp. He’s blowing his lungs out. He’s dripping sweat!
The show is splendid! The public well responding. The Magic is back.
The solos of Mark were unexpected in that specific RockHal (with no seats!). Why here? But Dylan has no logic. Does he know where he is? Which date today?
Fed. left at “The ballad of a thin man”, going to wait for the leaving of the bus. I’ve done it so many times but tonight I prefer to enjoy Bob on stage until the end. After all he’s right in front of me, even if I have to share him with 10 000 “anonymous”.
It seems that at the ending-salute he sees me! Big illusion! Poor me!
If I dreamed of Bob, I don’t remember.
At 70 he has still the attention and Love of many women. A lot in the front row last night.
But he has been seen alone walking the streets of Anvers. Alone? No. With Barron: the oldmansitter.
Bob Dylan broke so many records. He might have the record of the longest and most dedicated Fans all around the world.
-I heard they shot down Khadafi.
-I heard the economy is bad
-I heard people rioting
We live in a “Political world”.
I feel detached from it. So Bob Dylan certainly. He’s looking at the world through a hole in his bubble. A distorted reality of life.
”Do we write because we are happy or because we are not? A midrashic legend tells that King Salomon wore a ring that has the power to make him happy when he was sad and sad when he was happy. Question: why should he want to be sad when he had the luck of being happy?
Salomon was Jewish and a writer: never content.
Should we laugh or cry?
Crying is sowing, said the Maharal of Prague, laughing is harvesting. Writing is at the same time sowing and harvesting.”
Bob Dylan, who are you? A King Salomon?
Can’t I use my life and my time and my energy (and my money) for a more useful project? Saving children’s life in Africa? Praying in an Ashram in India for the souls of the wretched? Investing myself in an Ecologic movement to save Mother Earth? Join a protest movement to fight the injustices of this gloomy world?
Bob Dylan songs have no impact anymore: “Masters of war” doesn’t bring throngs of protesters in the streets to bring Peace in Afghanistan or Irak or Israel. How could when he also wrote “Neighborhood bully”, justifying the use of arms against Iran? There are some bad wars and there are some good wars? Who decides? Who separates the Good from the Bad?
”Once upon a time you dressed so fine
You threw the bums a dime in your prime, didn’t you?
People’d call, say, “Beware doll, you’re bound to fall”
You thought they were all kiddin’ you
You used to laugh about
Everybody that was hangin’ out”
Three quarter of his public is that Doll (middle class Yuppies). At what level they feel involved in the meaning of these words?
And himself? Could he imagine being
”with no direction home
A complete unknown
A rolling stone”
All except ‘A complete unknown’.
I wish he could erase that song from his set list.
I take a walk around the Arena. It’s some kind of recreational area. It’s Sunday. The families are enjoying themselves in a relative nice day, cool but sunny.
The scalpers are not making the finding of a cheap ticket easy. Nonetheless a young chap sells me one for 25€. Also the English couple will get two for 50€. We go together for a bite before the Dylan set. They also skip Knopfler when ever possible.
Our seats are far away so we sneak in a bit closer to the stage. Bob is small but the sound is clear and I can dance, standing up. They want to seat, not me.
They finally present each other: the man is C., American from California but living in England and the woman S., Irish living in England. Nice, decent BobCats.
My stories about Bob don’t impress them so much. Either they don’t believe me, either they’re jealous for they never really met Bob in person. And opposite to what most of the BobCats say they all want secretly to meet him. Some will pay the price like Fed. and some will hide behind some pseudo-philosophic explanation, trying to give themselves a good consciousness and make me feel guilty (for hanging around the bus).
Mark Knopfler in on stage with Bob now for three or four songs.
A young man told me that one of the Knopfler’s musician is writing a Blog. He wrote that in Esch-Sur-Alzette Bob and Mark Knopfler had had a half hour conversation in the buses parking lot. Deciding to play together?
This show is good, Bob and the musicians trying to “torch the night” but the public is not responding. Even “highway 61” doesn’t move the crowd.
They’re a static old bunch of Yuppies! Even some are leaving! Shame on you!
Tonight I want to say goodbye to Bob so I get out before the end (shame on me!).
I position myself on the side of the road. The two buses pass in front of me. Mr X. has a good look at me. Big deal! I say my ritual “ bye bye Bobby, good night”.
Get up at 6.00 a.m. and quickly pack up. Catch the first train to Mannheim. No show tonight.
Mannheim is packed with amateurs of Theater. I have to check in the Youth Hostel in Eidelberg. Easy ride by train and beautiful Hostel. I take a chance to do my laundry: washer and dryer (what a luxury!).
At 3.00 p.m. I move towards the SAP Arena. Find myself with Fed. on the train. Not exchange a word. I will stay away from her for in Oberhausen Barron called the parking lot security police on her. They asked her to move away from the back stage gates. As well as after the show. She screamed after Barron! Funny because that guy seems to me more sympathetic than before. I like his look. Though I’m not sure to be able to have a long conversation with him in the near future!? He’s been with Dylan since at least 1994. He must be good! But what kind of life is that? I haven’t seen so many girls around!
Here in Mannheim, again the parking lot is closed. The buses arrive at 3.45 p.m. So soon!
At 5.00 p.m. I see Bob walking back to his bus all covered up in a gray sweater.
Now the waiting again, the search for a ticket.
Someone sells me a comp ticket for 20€, on the floor.
Good seat but the Magic doesn’t work. The public is cold, polite, not moving.
Mark will be on stage for five songs including a splendid “John Brown” after “Mississippi”.
It will take a magnificent “Thunder on the mountain” to see people standing up or bobbing their head. At the first note of “Ballad of a thin man” we hear finally a big roar and some Fans rush from the back. I join happily!
Three security guards stop us in our impulse. Never mind I’m mixed with a bunch of joyous fellows. Finally my “Shot of love”.
I will have to go back home on the 1st of November. Business affairs. I will skip the three shows in the up North. Will I have the spirit to come back?
I would like to do the Italian leg. Never been to Italy. I’d like to visit the museums.
I meet the English couple at the train station; C. and S.. They’re not willing to share with me so much. BobCats are individualists, following their own dreams. They’re a couple sustaining one another.
My own ‘ghost’ arrived at the Olympiahalle in the early afternoon. The buses are parked in an open parking lot. I hang around. At 5.00 p.m. a brown van pulls by the Dylan bus.
My Bobby gets off the van, all dressed in brown leather suit (with hood on his head) and steps in his bus. Then steps in the van again which pulls away. Visit a friend? So Dandy!
I keep my stand by the bus. 30 to 45 minutes later the van comes back. Bob steps in his bus again with a Lady (can’t figure out if she’s the Lady from the bus or someone else).
Barron takes position. Nothing will happen before show time.
The search for a ticket is tough, many people awaiting for a spare-one. The prices are high. Close to 9.00 p.m. someone tells me they’re still selling at the box office. At the last minute I buy myself a standing for 67€ (my contribution for the buying of another brown-leather-suit, so Dandy!). My hostel booking was modestly a 15€ bunk in a shared-room.
Shortly before 9.00 p.m.
I hide from the security. As soon as the bus door opens I move closer to the ramp leading to the back stage door. Bob walks to the stage all dressed up with a white hat. I make a sign to Barron.
I move inside the hall and find myself standing at the top of the bowl, on the side of the stage. I’m in. I’m wondering if C. and S. got tickets tonight.
(later they will tell me that they sneaked in through the smoking area, curiously outside the venue). Fed. is in. She’s playing a little game with her sign “Please, I need a free ticket”. I doubt she got a free ticket tonight.
Mark Knopfler is in for three songs then … “Man in a long black coat”.
Funny for I was day-dreaming in the afternoon :
”I was approaching Bob just before the show and saying “Bobby ‘Man in the long black coat’, please Bobby”.
Did he hear me in HIS dream?
The public is cold until “Thunder on the mountain” and like last night a movement from the throng awaken the whole hall, fans rush in the front, screaming.
Bob is happy (how do I know? feelings). He moves to Tony and says something in his ear ”Forever young” (how do I know? I know that’s all!).
I’m out waiting for the buses to pull away.
”Bye bye Bobby, good night”.
MY night is short. Up at 5.45 a.m. to catch a train to Leipzig. I hope being able to sleep in that train (Bound for Glory! Woody you’ve been on my mind).
At 3.30 p.m. the buses left to pick them up. By 4.45 p.m. the buses are unloading Bob and his Band strait by the stage door.
Shortly before five Bob is stepping inside his bus, all hooded up. That stupid Fed. screams after him. Immediately they turn the bus over so we don’t even see the door.
I will see him walking to the stage door between the buses and the trucks, all dressed up with his white hat, shortly after 9.00 p.m. for his 16th show on that European Fall Tour.
I bought myself a seat on the floor for 50€ hoping for a movement of the crowd (I can’t initiate that movement, it has to come from more than one person. But I will be part of it. For God sake it’s a Rock and Roll show, not a philharmonic orchestra!).
The rush to the stage will happen before “Thunder on the mountain”. I move quickly forcing the security guards. We had had a surprising “Girl of the north country” at the beginning with Mark Knopfler on guitar.
Now we are crushed against the rails, some youngsters are hysterical but Bobby is right in front of me. I’m front row, looking intensely at his face. He looks younger and thinner. Did he loose some weight? Good Bobby, we don’t want you to look like an old fatty! I have a glimpse at his clear blue eyes, Azurin blue, translucent. He’s beautiful. Not grinning, almost serene, like a Buddha. Hoops! not so for he’s screaming out the lyrics of his songs. And he’s dripping on his battered keyboard all the liquid of his frele body.
Though we tried hard to encourage him, no “Forever young” tonight.
The lights are on, the cloudy vapors of a dream are vanishing.
I had my “shot of Love” after a gloomy day, playing Cat and Mouse with Barron (the Last Samouraï).
I walked from the central train station, surprised and astonished to see so many huge buildings. The streets were packed with tourists. I heard French speaking, might be the Fall break in France, Fall Holidays. I don’t even know which day of the week we are, might be also week-end. I joined the throng in the afternoon, walking and walking (but I “ain’t talkin’”! I love that song). In the evening bought myself some dinner and watched C.N.N. (T.V. in the room, supreme luxury).
-Tunisia is rioting.
-Syria not doing much better.
The Muslim world is in Anarchy. Good or Bad? will Democracy take precedence over religious fanaticism?
- Kampuchea is under water
- water is failing in Africa
- Turkia was checked out by an Earth Quake
- Spain is un-employed
- Greece is bankrupt (How a whole country can be Bankrupt?).
I feel detached as if I don’t belong to this Chaotic mess.
I hope that Bob was able to visit peacefully Berlin, got lost in the throng of tourists.
Or did he miss the standing ovation as much as I missed his rough voice?
On the 29th I went to the Fine Art Museum. Nice paintings, mainly from German painters I never heard about. I recognized some style: Italian Renaissance, Romantic, Impressionist. I’m truly impressed by the technique of Preyer, his fruits and flowers look more real than reality. I bought myself a post card to remember his name.
I have the sensation that he’s looking in my direction, so stupidly I clap my hands. Don’t ask me to be rational anymore: I’m exhausted beyond reason. I start talking to a Lady who’s pretty negative about finding a spare ticket but I just think that she doesn’t know. She’s also negative about the security, extremely tough she says. I start looking for a ticket. The scalpers are doing their work. It’s sold out and the prices are high. To make it worst a lot of people are looking for spare tickets. A young fellow came from Prague and he’s playing Bob Dylan songs on his guitar to make some money. Then C. and S. are joining the group and Fed. (who probably has already bought a ticket) and young couples … It’s getting cold and desperate. Right after Mark Knopfler set people are leaving the venue. We ask for their tickets and try to get in. The security is effectively tough. No way to re-enter, this is the rule, they say. We wait and wait and in my greatest despair I go by the bus spotting Mr X. and Barron but I don’t have the guts to call them and ask for an entry. Not the right persons.
Bob steps out of his bus by 9.00 p.m., all dressed up with his white hat. That will be the only image of Bob Dylan I will have in Berlin.
We are now only 5 fans waiting to get in, but noway to argue with the security. Two youngsters are thrown out the venue. Then a man is expelled out violently. Six security guards are wrestling with him, crushing him to the ground. C. and I approach the scene and we start yelling at them. We call them fascists and Nazis (maybe not appropriate). We yell that Germany is a terrible country. We yell that Bob Dylan should not be playing in Berlin. We are full of anger. At the same time more and more people are leaving the venue. I ask why. They raise their shoulders or they answer that the sound is bad, his voice is bad, the show is bad … bla bla bla.
One charitable Lady comes with me to the door with her ticket and argue in German that she’s willing to give me her seat, in vain. The main security guard is unbreakable. “it’s the rule” he says. I explain that I understand the rule but at this level it’s more a question of humanity: 5 fans want to get in a show, taking the seats of people leaving. The show is sold out, the tickets have been paid for and we are not drunk or anything. Until the last minute we will argue while more and more individuals are getting out, disappointed. We can’t believe someone would pay 100€ for a seat and not stay until the end! A bunch of Yuppies!
’Their heart is as hard as leather”
The Berlin O2World should be banned from any Dylan Tour. Too much violence and hardship. It doesn’t fit the Dylan spirit.
I will read a review on the Internet saying that effectively the sound was bad. One more reason not to play at the O2 World in Berlin.
At 10.30 p.m. the show is almost over. First time in all my crazy following over the years that I had not been able to get in, one way or another. It’s a terrible feeling!
I go by the bus. A glimpse of Bob getting in his bus. “Bye bye Bobby, good night”.
Did he realize how many people were leaving the venue?
Does he make the difference between this or that public, this or that venue?
Does he have the power to make things easier for the dedicated Fans?
What about a “standing” everywhere: standing for the Fans and sitting for the Yuppies?
The young Fan from Prague didn’t make it in, he’s now singing Dylan’s songs for a left over of public hopefully satisfied with the show.
I’m deadly cold and bluesy. I walk to my room as a zombie. I sleep a tormented sleep.
Though I’m tired I decide to take a walk in the area. I don’t regret it. The buildings are majestic, from the Prussian Empire? Heavily built from red bricks and copper (?). The city is divided by canals, the water is ubiquitous. It’s Sunday and the families are strolling along the canals, crossing the bridges, sipping a cappuccino, chatting peacefully in a cool but sunny air. The trees are dressed in their autumnal coats: yellow, brown, red and a tinge of green. I would like to sit down for hours and paint the changes of colors following the curve of the sun. Monet would have been fascinated by so much tint.
I recover from by bad mood. Get inside the most magnificent red-black bricks church I can find opened and say a little blessing for my dear Bobby. I hope he had the pleasure of a little walk in peace. If I see him, I promise, I won’t bother him.
For me it’s the end of the first European Fall Tour.
It depends on how I’m a-feelin’”
At 4.30 p.m.the two black buses enter the parking lot, down below a walking path. I find myself right on top of Dylan bus. Weird!
At 5.30 p.m the auburn-haired Lady spots me, calls immediately Barron. Few seconds later Barron raises his eyes and has a good look at me. I don’t blink. Bob literally jumps in his bus, all hooded ; “the little hooded Bob”.
They figure out that the spot of the bus is not the most secured, as any “nuts” could jump on it.
But I don’t see any “nuts” around to the exception of me and of course Fed.. But paranoia has no reasonable logic. So they move the bus and the ‘crazy old man’ in it.
He’ll stay in his black-gold-prison-cell until 9.00 p.m.
I move to the front of the Arena looking for C.. S. had to go back home for some days of work (yes, the BobCats have to work!). I meet there T., K., R., two girls following since Luxembourg, two more from Germany, the tall-english-grey-hair-man: the bunch of BobCats doing the German leg. The tall-English-grey-hair-man says that it’s his last concert on this Tour. He explains that he had spent more money on the half European Tour than on a whole U.S.A. Tour last Fall. The tickets’ budget in Europe is exploding the total budget: traveling, rooms, food .. It’s also my problem. We help C. to get a spare ticket for 25€ with success. We’re ALL IN tonight. Great!
I take my perch for the ‘Mark Knopfler and Band’ set. I don’t dislike it so much as Leon Russel set.
Mark Knopfler will chat with the public: same remarks, same jokes. He’ll make a point of honor to give the name of the city where he’s playing.
Dylan probably doesn’t even know where he is or what day of the week we are or if he has a public in front of him. Or am I completely wrong?
”Ladies and gentlemen…”
”Leopard-skin pill-box hat”. He must Love that hat!
And oh surprise! the first lines of “Boots of Spanish leather”. Whoa! It’s right into my spirit:
“I don’t know when I’ll be comin’ back again
It depends on how I’m a-feelin’”.
He heard me in His dream?
I sing along for I know that one by heart, and who cares if I’m not in tune.
The usual “Things have changed”. A statement for me and some Fans from the past.
”People are crazy and times are strange…” coming from the mouth of Dylan, I don’t know what to make of it. Does he include himself in People? He should. Being 70 years old, a multimillionaire and looking like a Turkish-Rebel-Teenager is not exactly the norm. Escaping the ‘look’ of/from Fans so dedicated that they travel the whole wold to SEE him, might be border line too.
I will definitively make a painting of “Man in a long black coat”. All the pictures are in my head.
”The levee’s gonna break”. I love it too.
”Highway 61”. I’m tired of. There is no ‘highway 61’ in Europe, Bobby, the public doesn’t respond so well as in the U.S.A.
”Thunder on the mountain” is the one that’s supposed to awaken the public. But tonight it’s not doing the trick. No moving in the front, no roaring, no dancing.
The sound might even be chaotic at times. The keyboard higher than any other instruments. Bobby, stop turning up that little button on the left side of your battered keyboard. We can hear it alright.
I’m glad he listened to me and he’s not anymore pulling up his pants on stage. He’s now using his hands to hold the mike to his mouth. A more appropriate gesture.
I reconciled with his stage outfit. Hidding his bullet-proof jacket or just his excess of weight?
It’s too late for any Magic. Even his little bow at the end makes me smile.
He’s throwing himself in pasture to the lions? “Eat me raw, I’m happy “? “I’m yours “?
My negativity is affecting my gravity. I’m down.
Or watch out for the rebound. What kind of rabbit he gonna pull out of his ‘leopard-skin pill-box hat’?
- economically
In the U.S.A. traveling was a lot harder. Distances between the cities being more important. The main problem was to access the venues and get out of the venues. No effective public transportation. The cars’ Lobby is efficient: the car is the Queen. In Europe, thanks to some kind of social system, the public transportation is working: trains, buses, trolleys, trams, undergrounds … are accessible for all, even free after the show. Also the venues in Europe are inside the cities, not miles away in the middle of nowhere!
Every night after the shows in Europe I had a room with relative comfort: hostels are accessible in any big cities at a reasonable price (between 12€ and 25€).
But what increased my budget in Europe was the tickets’ buying with most of the shows being sold Out and the scalpers taking advantage of it. No shows were Sold Out in the U.S.A. (except Nashville). The American public is tired of Bob Dylan?
I believe the European public is younger than the U.S.A. public. Some youngsters in Europe are truly Bob Dylan Fans (not just joining their old parents). Even the ‘old’ public is 10 or 15 years younger than the ‘old’ American public (being Dylan age or older). Still 100% white.
I mark the difference with Mark Knopfler and Band. They seem to enjoy themselves on stage, showing a spirit of comradely, exchanging looks with the front row. They SMILE.
Bob Dylan: the Legend, the Icon, the Prophet, the Poet of Rock and Roll, … Every night he moved in and out thousands of people.
What a remarkable exploit for a grumpy, Turkish-rebel-dressed, untouchable, unreachable, unapproachable, crazy old man. A dream twister.
In 1981 not once I took a room in a Hostel. I was mainly sleeping outside (it was summer), in the train stations, invited to some Fans’ house whom I could (still) meet at the back stage door.
In Germany the shows were outdoor with standing in front of the stage. After proving to the Dylan Staff I was not a nuisance I had had contacts with Bob’s entourage: Jimmy (the sweet bodyguard) who let me in for free many times, Stan (Bob’s personal physician and cousin), Bob Meyers (the stage manager), Howard Alk (who even invited me in Bob’s studio in Santa Monica. Did I miss my chance?).
The shows were longer (only Dylan on the ticket), mixed with old songs and gospel songs.
the Band was good (I loved the Girls adding a touch of femininity). I believe Bob was then truly happy on stage and off stage with Klydie King. He was then approachable and charitable (a tint of Christianity, the Jesus’ spirit?).
He’s diluting himself in that “Never ending Tour” taking the pace of a “Never ending Run”.
I Love you Bobby.
Thanks for taking me
’on a trip upon your magic swirling ship’
It’s your brand new leopard-skin pill-box hat”
If the door is closed, Bobby, please open a window.
My money comes and goes
My money comes and goes
And rolls and flows and rolls and flows
Through the holes in the pockets in my clothes”
To disgrace, distract, and bother me
And the dirt of gossip blows into my face
And the dust of rumors covers me
But if the arrow is straight
And the point is slick
It can pierce through dust no matter how thick
So I’ll make my stand
And remain as I am
And bid farewell and not give a damn”
11/19 LONDON
From
Zurich I go back home. There are two days off before the three last
shows at the Hammersmith Theater in London.
I
still don’t know if I’ll be able to go. Finding tickets will be
the biggest problem. On the other hand I would like to see all the
BobCats again and see if Bob will do something spectacular. He’s
always good in London.
I
arrive home on the evening of the 17th after
a whole day in the trains or train-stations.
On
the 18th I
take care of my business affairs. I check on the internet for train
tickets and for a booking in a Youth Hostel in London. Everything
goes well. I will go finally.
I
arrive at St Pancras train-station at 11.28 a.m. It’s too early to
check in so I leave my back at the Hostel and go strait to the
Hammersmith Appolo Theater. There is already a line of 15 or 20
people. I say hello to all the BobCats I know and inquire for a
ticket. I find one at face-value, 70£ (I will find one for every
night). The doors will open at 6.00 p.m. for a show at
7.30 p.m. But as in Italy the tickets they sold through the Mark
Knopfler Fan Club have a pre-entry. 20 to 25 people will be in front
before the ones on the line even if some have been here since 10:00
a.m.
At
6.00 p.m. we run. Luckily for me Dooddy is here with a Mark Knopfler
ticket and in front. He saved me some space on the rail, slightly on
the left.
A
good spot since Bob will again turn his keyboard aside. We all expect
a lot from these three nights. A changing in the set list. A big
surprise? “Isis”?
It's
a bad joke to ask this song that Bob doesn't do anymore on stage.
That
song was written as a tentative of reconciliation with his first wife
Sara, at a time when their marriage was in jeopardy. He will never do
that song again!
The
first show is average, nothing too new. The Venue is small, 3000 or
so. The atmosphere is warm. The whole first row, on the rail, is
filled up with BobCats. There will be no security problem.
The
stage is low so we can see the musicians’ boots.
I
haven’t seen C. and S., they should be in the back.
I’m
glad I made it for now the atmosphere is friendly.
Bob
is wearing his black hat and his white boots.
He’s
really close but doesn’t seem to acknowledge the public.
VIII
11/20
LONDON
I
arrive at the Theater at 2.30 a.m.after a bad night sleep in a dorm
of 8 packed like sardines. The breakfast is a buffet; bread, cereals,
coffee, orange juice (or substitute of). I ate all I could eat. My
only meal of the day.
I
meet the same Fans; Johanna (first in line), two English old chaps,
the tall young English boy, 2 German women (red hair and blond hair),
one German girl (the other one could not come), Eilrick, the German
young guy I met first in Lille, the two white-haired old men (from
Germany or Norway or Sweden), a french lady (Cathy) an English woman
(Romy), Rita, Dooddy, Simeon, the man from Switzerland (who doesn’t
like me too much!), Steve the English fan who had been to Duluth and
Hibing, Demetrios and his girl friend (Mat will not
come they say), Eva from Norway with her mentor Becky, Roberto from
Italy, the tall man from Berlin and his friends. T. and K. will join
later and of course C. and S.. Of course Fed.. Probably more who
don’t wish to be in the front. Altogether 30 to 35 BobCats.
We
keep ourselves warm with coffee or beer until 6.00 p.m (not too much
though). A bit chilly today but nothing bad. At least no rain. It’s
Sunday. The line behind us is forming faster than yesterday.
At
6:00 p.m. we all run, run, run. Not so much solidarity anymore!
We’re all at the rail at the same spot as yesterday.
We’re
so impatient that it’s difficult to concentrate on Mark Knopfler
set. His jokes are no more funny!
“Ladies
and gentlemen …”
Right
away the first notes of “Leopard-skin pill-box hat” are perfectly
executed by all the musicians. We ALL know that’s gonna be THE
night. Bob is in his best. Professional, not at all erratic as he can
be sometimes. I don’t realize when Mark leaves the stage. Stu and
Charley are doing the trick.
The
first notes of “Blind Willy Mc Tell”. I’m in Heaven!
But
Eva, on my left has a nervous break-down. She’s hysterical and
doesn’t want to go with the security. She falls on the ground and
stays there for a while. I am torn between helping her
or concentrating on the show. She doesn't respond to my help so I
swap space with Becky who will take care of her. I go back to Bob.
The show is fantastic! Great performance from all the Band. Even
“Highway 61” and “The ballad of a thin man” recover their
magic.
After
“All along the watch tower” Bob moves to Tony and says something
in his ear. One of the roadies brings a sheet. Bob grabs
it and puts it on the pile on his keyboard.
The first lines of “Jolene”, what a surprise! Then “Like a
rolling stone”, sang by 3000 voices.
All
the BobCats are stoned. Best performance on that Tour.
But
for me the Innsbruck show will still be the best for even tonight Bob
didn’t look at the public like he did in Innsbruck. Though I don’t
know how much he can see without looking.
I
meet with C. and S. at the end of the show. We go for a drink in a
pub with T..
S.
would like to be front tomorrow so we agree to be on the line at
10:00 a.m.
IX
11/21
LONDON
Johanna
is already there with her sleeping bag, since 8:30 a.m. Plus the two
English old chaps. They don’t share so much. Also the tall English
young man, the two German women are joining soon. We complain about
the fact that anyway the Mark Knopfler Fan Club buyers will be in
before us, no matter what. The tension is mounting. We all want to be
front, and most of all the women. Suddenly I feel like being in a
chicken coop, Bob being against his will the cock and the chicks
fighting for his attention. The rush gonna be hard tonight, no more
friendliness. Unfortunately for me the scanner doesn’t work and I
miss the advantage of my 6th position
on the line. Fortunately for me Dooddy was on the rail and accepts to
save me some space. But I find myself again next to Eva. I fear the
worst. Her mentor Becky is insulting me, pretending I stole Eva’s
space. I concentrate on the show, the last one of a long run.
I
recite some mantra and breathe hard.
And
Bobby in on. The chicks in the front are hysterical! Poor Bobby!
The
show is not as together as last night, his voice is getting tired.
But he’s doing his best.
In
three days he will do;
Leopard-Skin
Pill-Box Hat
Don't
Think Twice, It's All Right/ It's All Over Now, Baby Blue
Things
Have Changed
Mississippi/
Tryin' To Get To Heaven/ Spirit On The Water
Honest
With Me
The
Lonesome Death Of Hattie Carroll/ Tangled Up In Blue/ Forgetful Heart
Ballad
Of Hollis Brown/ Summer Days/ The Levee's Gonna Break
Make
You Feel My Love/ Blind Willie McTell/ Man In The Long Black Coat
Highway
61 Revisited
A
Hard Rain's A-Gonna Fall/ Desolation Row
Thunder
On The Mountain
Ballad
Of A Thin Man
All
Along The Watchtower
Jolene
Like
A Rolling Stone
Forever
Young
He
did in three days all the regular songs from the Tour, exception of
“Blowing in the wind” as an encore. With the presence of Mark
Knopfler for “Forever
Young”.
What
a wonderful conclusion!
May
your heart always be joyful
May your song always be sung
May
you stay forever young
Forever young, forever young
May you
stay forever young
Make You Feel My Love/ Blind Willie McTell/ Man In The Long Black Coat
May your song always be sung
May you stay forever young
Forever young, forever young
May you stay forever young